First Christmas with Kam

This year Christmas is a bit different from the past as I wasn't in my own home but, in other's.
His family doesn't celebrate Christmas. Christmas to them is just like any other days, same as my family too. So, what have I done during Christmas?
On 24th, Kam and I were rushing to bus Terminal 2 for our bus, scheduled at 8:30 pm. However, because of the delay of KTM, we have failed to catch the bus even with taxi. So, there goes my 20 bucks for the taxi. In the end, thanks to the bus driver for 9:30 pm, which is another bus to Larkin, we got the ticket by paying extra 20 bucks per person. Felt so sorry for the bus driver because the ticket seller of the bus company didn't want to let us do that. Instead, she wants us to buy a new ticket, which is 50 bucks. (I don't know whether it's for 2 persons or per person.) I was so mad at that time that I wanted to curse the lady. (I know~ I was a bit evil.) However, we managed to arrive Larkin bus station safely. And, thanks to the bus driver. God will always bless you, uncle.
Arrived at Kam's house at 1 am sth. Felt so sorry for causing his parents to sleep late. Paisei~
25th => everything is just like any other days. The difference is the children that are around, a 2-year-old boy and a 1-year-old boy. Both are Kam's big brother's kids.
One special event happened in the night. Electricity was cut off, maybe for maintenance. At the same time, Kam and I were too hungry that we were forced to cook in dark. Actually, he's the one that did the cooking while I was waiting for my supper. Hehehehe!

-Left one was his, right one was mine-
With a candle at the center, this was our romantic supper.


-Kam took a photo of me after he finished his supper.-
What a stalker.

Overall, it was a common but peaceful Christmas where there were no crowds screaming and shouting.

p/s: thx dear, for preparing supper and washing dishes. =)

Went to TS again

Every end of the year, there are discounts! YES! (year-end-sale)

This year, same as last year, went to Times Square to shop.
Have to admit, it's kinda boring at the beginning cos I couldn't shop a thing!Experience this for the first time - nothing caught my attention.
But, in the end, I manage to find two pairs of shoes! Hope that they can match with my dresses and CNY clothes.

Shopaholic (a shop in TS) is a good store to buy shoes. Cheap (There are RM 15, 20, 40... shoes to choose from), pretty (at least I can find shoes that fit me), good service (other store's promoters seem to be rude sometimes, spoil my mood nia). Since one pair is 39.90 and if I buy two, they will be RM 60. So, ended up buying two then. One is high heels (Jeans), another is just normal flat cover shoes.

When I first entered the store, the high heels was the one that I noticed first becos it looks so tiny! I thought my feet wouldn't be able to fit in but I could, without any pain, just a bit tight, that's all, and Kam said it fits me quite well. So, considered quite some time as it's made of jeans which might be hard for me to match with my clothes o dresses. However, in the end, I bought it! yeah! Because of the promotion, I bought another pair which is a type of shoes that I don't have. (I have too little shoes d, that's why.)

-As you can see, photos taken on INTI's bed-
(sorry to the owner of the bed)

I plan to match my shoes with black stoking. Then, match together with either short pants or dresses. Hmmm... I'm scared I will look lala. :( Gah~ shall try in Kam's house and ask for his comments d.

I did buy a dress but I think I don't look nice in it even though it fits me. It costs me 25 bucks. Maybe I will upload the photo of it next time. Ohya, Kam and I watched bodyguards and assassins just now. It was just ok. In fact, it's a bit boring. Without any reason, I have the feeling that Avatar won't be nice too, just normal.

What a "Nice" Day to Start With

awaken by the alarm I set.
10 mins after that, calling from mom downstairs, asking me about the printing stuff that my aunt asked me to do last night.
OMG! This time I'm really screwed!
I forgot to print the document that she sent me!!!
For anyone, such as my bro and sista, who know my aunt, they know what would happen next if we didn't do the thing we have promised her.
Damn!
Quickly pulled myself out of the bed and switched on my laptop.
Heard my aunt's voice downstairs. Oh God!!! (even God can't help me right now.)
After she found out about it, she left, followed by my mom's and dad's calling.
"Ok~Ok~ I know!" *waiting for my laptop to be ready*
Went into hotmail website. Open my inbox. Click here and there.
Ok, finally downloaded the file and save it in my pendrive in semi-conscious state.
Went downstairs and printed the doc out. *hustling*
DONE!
If anyone thinks that this event has ended, you are 100% wrong!
The coming part was the worst.
Called my aunt, she answered with a nice tone.
And, just 1 second after she knew it was me, I was bloodily scolded on the phone.
"you are just like your brother! only know how to promise but never do it! how are u going to work in the future? If your boss ordered you to print the meeting documents which he's going to use the next morning and you forgot, what will happen? If the documents are urgently in need, what are you going to do? If you can't do it, you should have told me earlier! I can ask your dad to print it out for me! Is that hard to just print a piece of document?!"
Every word in total harshness.
Listened to every word she said, held the phone in my hand, standing, keeping quiet.
"I suddenly forgot."
One sentence attracted a whole scolding session again.
Finally...
"Printed?"
"Yes."
"Bring it to me."
"Ok. I'll bring it to you now."
Calmed myself down. After changing, tried to hold the tears in me.
"Pa, drive me to grandma's house."
Suddenly, tears burst out me. (skip the long story of calming down myself after that.)
Arrived there. Handed the paper to her.
And, again, being scolded again. This time wasn't that fierce like just now. *standing right beside her, looking at her, listening to whatever she said.*
"I won't forget next time."
"It's better for family members to scold you than outsiders."
I squeezed a smile out for her which I think it looks quite natural.
Then, I leaved with my dad. Walking out of the house, I held the tears inside my eyes. ( scolding myself in my heart, "why do I always have to cry! damn! I hate myself being weak!")

-End of Story-

So, I guess this is a good day, huh?

Digression:
Going out with my dad later in the afternoon to buy bus ticket and shop for rice.
Hmm...when will I get the chance to buy digi campus?
If I told my dad, would he allow me to buy?
If he asked the reason of buying it, how should I tell him?
Gah~

What Is Today's Lunch?

Again, mom didn't cook today. This is what happen when she has morning shift. My dad usually da-bao food outside. Sometimes I also "tumpang". Today is a bit different since I'm going to cook my own meal.

What is the menu for noon?
Spaghetti!!!

Sliced mushrooms and some small prawns are added into my spaghetti. (Can't just have the noodles only, right?)
Sauce? Don't expect me to prepare the sauce. Hahaha! I'm a lousy chef. (Bought from hypermarket la!) XD
Cook the noodles... bla bla bla bla bla......

And, in the end?
Ta-da!

[ MY LUNCH ]

After having the main course, since I was in the good mood, took two red apples and cut them into pieces. This process is much easier than preparing spaghetti.

After working on these two recent posts, I realize that I really need a camera!!! Or a handphone which can snap picture would be very helpful, as I don't wanna use my laptop integrated webcam to take picture anymore! It's suffering...

CNY Clothes!!!

What I would do end of every year - buying new clothes for CNY!!!
Best part of my holiday.
This year, I've bought most of them in a very short period.
4 shirts and a cap in 2 hours.
A short pants and a dress the next morning.
A dress that has been bought before Ah Ching left.
( shopped with her in Times Square )

Ok, enough for the intro. Here are my CNY clothes.
[The Short Pants - RM 36]

(front)

(back)

[White Long Sleeve Shirt]
Kinda plain. Lack of accessories.

[Free Size Blue Long Sleeve Shirt]
That's why it's a bit loose for me, yet comfortable.
Looks relaxing, right?


[Green Stripe Shirt with a Cap Behind]
This shirt is quite long for me, and it's size M!
Again, it's a bit loose.


[Jean Dress Bought in Times Square with Ching - RM 50]
It can be worn in 3 ways. It has 4 stripes.
First: tie the two front stripes at the back.

(front)

(back)

Second: hide all stripes inside the dress.
But, I prefer to add a ribbon.


Third: tie all 4 strips at the side.


[Dress Bought in Morning Market]

Erm...Don't know what to say.

Here is a cap by Blue Toms and the last shirt, by Googles.


-Combining the two-

Yeng or not?

Whew~ Taken some time for me to take all these photos and upload them here.
This post is really a lot of work. Hahaha!
But, I'm satisfied with it. =)

Thank you and sorry

I thought I have changed but now I know I never did.
Always be the one that hurts people.
So, stay away and don't ever be close to me.
I just want to be with me.
I just want to be alone.
Relying only to myself.
Being just a person that no one knows.
Sorry is the only thing I can say to them.
Apologize is the only thing I can do.
Staying away is what I should do.
Not to bother people.
Not to be with anyone.
Just, with myself.
I appreciate what you have told me.
I really do.
I appreciate what you have done for me.
I really do.
Thanks to all of you who have helped me.
I really do.
Thank you and sorry.

Weight Gained

Seems like exercising can really help me to gain weight. 1st thing to do after reaching home - measure my weight! XD

Guess what? I gained weight! Even though it's not very heavy for others but to me, this weight is the heaviest that I get since I was born - 37 kg. Since Raya, when I found out that I lost 2kg, only 34kg. I was so sad. But now, unbelievable! I have gained 3 kg this time. Yeah! New record created!

Hoping to gain more. This discovery motivates me to continue with my gain-weight plan.
Decided:
-To exercise almost every day if possible, mainly jogging with my dad.
-To eat an egg per day, no matter it's breakfast or eat it with my cintan mee as supper.
-To have every meal, no skipping.
-To eat chocolate every day and drink a lot of water (so that I won't have fever or constipation).
-To wake up early and sleep early. (this is the least possible thing for me to do).




SMILE!!! Life is full with sufferings and happiness. You just have to deal with both of them equally. Try to maximize the happiness and reduce the pain. Find the balance yourself in your life. SMILE ALWAYS AND HAVE FUN!!! =D

Song Created In INTI

"毫无关系的两个人
没有任何牵连
天天相遇但却从不谈话
这样子过了一年

缘份连上了他们
他们却不晓得
这奥妙感觉在他们心里面
慢慢地滋长

今年的十月真不一样
两个人的关系在进化
从没想过 结局会变成怎样
因为只要曾经拥有就足够
珍惜对方的存在
你的陪伴 你的体温 你的笑容
让我爱上了你"


created on the 21st of Oct 2009 [18:54 pm]
in block K common room.


Hahaha! Exciting! But only a small part of a song only.
Maybe I should find someone to sing the song for me. (bcz my singing sucks) hahaha

Ok. Now here's the question, I have thought of a name for this song - "十月份的进化". Is it ok? Or any other suggestions?

After Stat Test 2

Weekends is the best! But this weekends isn't that fun, having to prepare for my upcoming accounting test 2 and sta quiz on Monday.

Luckily, I manage to survive through this hectic week, by sleeping at 3am every night and waking up at 8-9am. Now, my body systems are all down. Feeling a bit old lately but I have found a cure for that.

Last night was a bit crazy. After having my stat test 2 (I think I screw up again), I played pool for almost 4 hours?? Haha! From 3.45-6.30, lepak in skillpool. Then after dinner, pool again until I reached my room at 10pm. Then, out to common room to study at 11pm, but the revision wasn't effective at all. No mood to study. ==" Kacau Kam when he's doing his calc2 assignment4 and we chatted. Sorry oh, Kam. Hahaha! Anyway, found out a good news - Kam scoring full in his calc2 Test 2. Damn! He is so smart. *envy* But this isn't all about intelligence, I know he worked very hard to get that result. A photo to prove:

See? How serious and hardworking this Kam Kam is? As always, I'm the one who kacau him only. Wahahahaha!

Oh, there's one important photo that I forgot to upload. The pool table miracle. Hehehe!

Created by me! This is real, no editing or anything. I hit the ball so that I can hit MJ's blue ball out. In the end, both balls stuck in front of the hole, half hanging. Damn Yeng.

By the way, I saw the good looking guy again yesterday. He was playing pool with his friend. This time, I watched him from close distance. To my surprise, he is very good in pool! Almost all balls enter when he hits, and he barely aims at all. Damn zhun.

Regarding my stat test 2, I want to thank all those who have wished me - Kam, my Peng Peng, Gaik Lyn especially and others. Having lunch with you (Gaik Lyn) was delightful. Hope to see you around in INTI, and makan together next time. =) Be happy always, girl.

A Poem???

"You said that you are interesting,

but all I can think of is disgusting;

Even though both words end with I.N.G,

but their meaning are two different things."


-created yesterday evening when playing pool-
~ HAHAHA ~

Experiencing Short Semester

Whew~ Didn't update my blog for awhile already. What are the things that keep me busy all the time? I guess there will be no other than my stat and accounting II. Let's see what are the things that I need to cope with in this week.

Mon: [today] hand-in accounting assignment. Luckily I have MJ and Hoo Siang to cover the assignment. After completing the cover page, table of content, bibliography and intro, I went to sleep at 5.30am. I feel guilty now cuz MJ and Hoo Siang didn't sleep all night just to finish the last question and check/edit the assignment. Later treat them dinner la. Anyway, the assignment is still incomplete as MJ just told me that they still need to edit the conclusion for a little bit more. I wanted to help out but, internet connection sucks, unable to transfer the file, eff~. So, asked MJ to sleep first, then wake up at 4pm, do the final touching on the assignment then done! (HOPE SO) Have to pass up the assignment before 6pm. Now it's time for me to sleep also. Have been sleeping around 3-5am every day. Tire~

Wed: Due date for SPSS Project. I guess that won't be a much problem since my group has nearly done all on last friday, only left the conclusion.

Thu: Due date for STAT assignment 4. This one is going to take about an hour or more to finish. After that, still need to compare answer and discuss with friends. I think I'll settle it tonight, if possible.

Fri: This is the worst among all - STAT test 2. I screwed up my last test; it's REALLY TERRIBLE. Possibility to get an A is very low, unless I can score perfectly in test 2 and finals. If not, ~.~"
4 credit hours man! I don't want the same thing that happened in calc 1 to be repeated. NO!!!

The following Mon: Acc test 2. I barely know about those chapters that are going be tested. So, 2 days for 3 chps??? =.=" Sweat... Test 2 is going to be difficult this time as the format will be the same as finals.

Argh...My body and mind are complaining. Time to sleep now. Started to feel headache. I think I won't be able to jog today. Sleep now, and then, 3.50pm wake up. Ok! Tidur now. -.-zzzzz

Dinner then Play Pool Again

Today I was a total pig for sleeping the whole day. Slept at 4am then woke up at 1.30pm. Had my lunch (instant cup noodles+egg). Went online for awhile and played poker on FB. Slept again at 4pm until 7pm. Then, called every possible friend to find one to have dinner with. Finally, I found Hao Xiang and MJ. After having 1 fish and 1 chicken special burger, we went to Trick Shot to play pool. MJ said "ONLY AWHILE". Ya right! When it's playing pool, we never play "ONLY AWHILE". XD

First time playing outside of INTI, at Trick Shot. The facilities there are nice, better than that in INTI, especially the balls and table. Balls are very shinny and smooth, so I don't have to use much strength to hit them into hole. Hao Xiang said he can't stand the way I hit the balls as it seems like I just simply hit the balls but they all enter. Hahaha! It's not true though! Since I really did aim first before I hit. Please la~

Never thought of uploading this resit, but I did, as Hao Xiang suggested, so that I can prove that I did go there and beat both MJ and him. I am so excited today to have won. However, I think it's all about luck and the right feeling when you play pool. So, MJ is still cool in it! He is really good in it. This is undeniable. He can just clean the table, leaving only 1 ball left when it's your turn to make your FIRST move in that game (which means you still have 7 balls left).

As shown above, we played from 8.44pm till 10.21pm. It is quite expensive to play there as one hour = 13 bucks!!! (I have calculated.) I guess we would still prefer to play in INTI as 1 hour = 9 bucks only.

p/s: Kam, get the 9 bucks that I owe you in pool from Hao Xiang, as he owes me 9 bucks.

Friday Night

Now, I feel as if I were in my first semester in INTI. Friday night was always the "best" night.

Yoke Ching, I think you know what I always do on Friday night, right? I miss you now. I really miss you now. You are the only one that I miss so much, despite of my family. I need you now. I really need you. I tried very hard to hold myself. I managed to win but for only 10 minutes. And now, I totally fail to control it. I have trained myself so hard to live without you. I have trained myself to be tough for all the time. Why am I so weak still? I smile, I control, I hold it back, trying the best I could. Why can't I live just like any others? Yoke Ching, tell me! Why!!! I tried so hard to hide all of it. But, that is impossible for me to cover every hole that exists. There must be a way out to balance it. So, here I am. With no way to go, I come to my blog to make it a way out for it. No one understands except you, my dear. Why didn't you online? I really need you right now. But, I never blame you. I understand that you have your own life to take care of, your new environment in UWash. I hope everything goes the way you want it. I hope your dreams will come true. I don't want to be your burden. I want to be your bff. I dare not ask too much from you even if you don't mind. I really miss you, ah Ching. I really do. You are the best thing that ever happens to me. I wanna hug you now, even if you hit me and push me away. Just for 5 minutes. That is all I ask for. Not much.

Tomorrow is going to be the Mooncake Festival. Remember our first ever Mooncake Festival? Joanne brought us jelly mooncake. That was the first time I saw jelly mooncake and the first time we celebrated it together. I miss the time when we still have each other, even the time we argue and fight with each other.
Friday night is torturing......


p/s: This is not a love letter. It's a post that I write for Yoke Ching and myself.

Pool & Badminton! Awesome!

Today is one delightful day! Slept for only 4hours, but was energetic enough to play pool and badminton.

Yeah! I get to play badminton, using my own racket in INTI. I think it's the third time I play in MPH, using my own badminton racket. This time, I played with Janice and her friend, Johan, who was my classmate too in last semester. I met some cool and super nice people, such as Chloe(econ classmate), Wilson, Eik Sheng(sorry, don't really know how to spell the name) and another two more guys (they didn't tell me their names, so...paisei la). Oh, I remember one, his name sounds like "kung-fu", my accounting classmate this sem. The other one was also my psycho classmate. So, eight of us, played badminton for two hours and had our dinner at 9pm. This is how college life should be.

Oh, forgot to mention about pool. I didn't plan to play today as I just played yesterday with Meng Hon. But since Meng Hon called me to play, so I played with him for a few games. I played with Xin Zhi for most of the time. Spent 8 bucks in pool and 14 bucks in dinner, I'm poor now. Really poor... :[
Can someone sponsor me? Tak ada money d. Kesiannya.

Now resting. I sweat a lot. Whole body is wet! I think I can even squeeze water out of my clothes. But I didn't feel tire when they said they want to leave for dinner. I am Sooo... into badminton! No doubt it's my favorite hobby. Today is really a very wonderful day. (If I don't have to do accounting and prepare for mid-term exams.) :(

Second Lunch + Pool Games

Exercise does help in my appetite. Just jogged yesterday and I can see the effect today. As usual, I have my lunch at 12pm. Then class starts from 12-2pm. But today, I had a SECOND lunch at 2pm! So hard to believe it. After having my spaghetti in bakery, I was still hungry actually. I thought of having another cheese cake in bakery but I didn't as my lunch for today already cost me 9.5MYR - vegetarian rice, honeydew, spaghetti.

I saw one good looking guy in bakery while I was waiting for my meal. I never thought that such guy would appear in INTI. Hmm...he is not really handsome. He looks very healthy, that kind of guy that exercises a lot. His skin is a bit dark, healthy skin that a sporty man should have. He has broad shoulders and with a height of 175cm and above. (Not so sure as I was sitting when he's walking out of bakery.) He wears spec which makes him look like ABC. His spec is just black without any other colors. It's just simple and nice. He is the type of natural good looking guy with no disguise. Just a simple white round collar T with a black knee-length pants plus a black back pack make him looks so attractive.

After having my second lunch alone, when I passed by the pool center, guess what I saw?
Him again. How come I've never met him when I was playing pool? Maybe I weren't so aware of the surrounding when I was playing pool. XD

It's good to see good looking guys here in INTI, even if there's only one. But now I'm in anti-love-relationship mode. Haha! So, just let my eyes enjoy the "look" only. =D

Didn't play pool for two weeks already. Time to brush up pool skills with my sifu. Later I still need to jog with Marvin. =)
~~~~~

Just came back from dinner with Duxson and Dolphin (sorry if I spelled your name wrongly).
I ended up jogging alone just now as Marvin was busy with his studies and assignment, I guess. My stamina today isn't as good as yesterday. And my legs are painful, the kind of feeling that I had when I joined the Penang Bridge marathon. I don't know whether I can still jog with Marvin tomorrow. But at least I sweat and I feel healthy. Total up, I had spent 14MYR today for 2 lunch and 1 dinner, excluding my supper that I might have later. Haha! I hope that I can gain weight. Even one kg is very significant for me since I have lost 2 kg before Raya. :(

Oh, forgot to mention about the pool games. I played pool with Meng Hon around 3pm. He was too tired until he lost in the games. We played only 4 games but I was happy as he said I've improved. Yeah! Then I played another 3 games with Jonathan. I discovered that guys don't like to accept money from girls. Jonathan refused to accept my money for the games as he said that he won't accept it when he's the one who invited me to play. =.=" Same thing goes to MJ. Last time I worked so hard to stuff money into his bag just to pay for the pool games. And, I succeeded! Hehehe! But this is only applicable to some of the guys. There are guys that won't hesitate to claim money from girls too. Haha!

Is It Just A Dream?

Today, I saw him online. It looks so real. But it also seems like a dream. I remember that I was just finished bathing, lying on the bed and thinking of him. Then, I checked on my tabs that were lagging. When I opened my msn, scrolling up and down to see if there's any updates, I saw him. The apple green which shows that he is online, has become so striking than usual. I sent messages but there's no reply. It looks so real but at the same time, maybe I was too tired, it looks like a dream. I was so excited but disappointed at the same time. Maybe he doesn't care about me anymore, but I do care about him. Anyway, I am still happy to know that he has recovered from illness. Even if that is just a dream, I'm still happy to be able to dream of him. =)
~~~
Exercise does make me feel healthy. It's good for the body system too as I really feel tired now. Wanted to sleep but, my heart is still hoping for something to happen. What an idiot I am. Hahaha!
~~~
It's all just a dream. A dream which I hope that it's just a dream. A dream which I hope that it will have a wonderful ending. A dream which I hope will be a reality that is not hurtful. It's just a dream afterall. Is it?
~~~
Yes. It's a dream that I shouldn't be dreaming anymore. I don't wanna be the same old me again. Thinking of someone too often isn't fun. He is always busy. He has his own plans. He has his own future, a bright one.
~~~
I need to have my own life, my own plans. I have to make myself busy. I must build my own future.
~~~
He told me that there's too few people that can overcome the reality. But, I don't think that is the cause now. People can overcome it, depending on how that person deals with the reality. Apparently, he chose the another way. He does work for what he wants. I believe that. It's just that there's always rankings for plans. =)

USED vs LOVED (email)

While a man was polishing his new car,
his 4 yr old son picked up a stone
and scratched lines on the side of the car.

In anger, the man took the child's hand
and hit it many times not realizing
he was using a wrench.

At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers
due to multiple fractures.

When the child saw his father.....
with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?'
The man was so hurt and speechless;
he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times.

Devastated by his own actions......
sitting in front of that car he looked at the scratches;
the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.
The next day that man committed suicide. . .

Anger and Love have no limits;
choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely
life & remember this:
Things are to be used and people are to be loved.
The problem in today's world is
that people are used while things are loved.

Let's try always to keep this thought in mind:
Things are to be used,
People are to be loved.

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character;
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.


I hope you have a good day no matter what problems you may face
it's the only day you'll have before it's over.

Jogging Today

It has been awhile since the last time I jogged in INTI.
Now, it's time to start having the habit to jog every week, with the hope of becoming fatter.
My sis told me before that exercise is not just meant for those who want to keep fit, but also for those skinny people like me to gain weight. So, jogging is the most convenient way. I don't have to book court just for badminton, or to even pay for exercise.
So, today, I jogged with Marvin in INTI. We jogged for 20mins only but it was good enough for me already. I saw Jessica, Chloe, Fatin and her Malay friends there also, exercising. They are so lucky to have people to join them. Luckily, Marvin is willing to accompany me. Hehe!
Then, at 6pm, we went out to have dinner. 100 plus, yee mee are what we had for dinner.
(My purpose of having yee mee is because of the egg, of the protein. Hehe!)
Overall, today is better than the other days as I only on my RC this morning (10mins only). Then, I never go to FB anymore. Besides, it feels good to sweat! It would be better if I can play badminton at least 2 times a week. =(
Now it's time to bath since I'm done resting after my dinner. (Though it's unhealthy to bath after dinner.)

p/s: Thx for the dinner and the companion, Marvin. Thx for the invitation during lunch, Jan. =)

Another non-beneficial day

Woke up before 9am today. Only slept for <5hours.
Waiting for someone to be online to skype...
Yoke Ching my dear and another friend.
Talk to my dear like old times. Miss her so much.
Told her the good news and found out that she lied about one thing.
Haha! Ching, you know what I'm talking about. You lose. :P
~Nei nei nei nei bu bu~

Mouth gatal today.
Forced myself to go out for dinner. (Only coco crunch for lunch. Pity me. Lazy.)
Not because of dinner actually. It's because of my snack and junk food.
Spent 6MYR on useless things. Dad sure scolds me if he knew.

Junk food bought:

These will hold me up tonight. Hehehe!

Woke up at 9am. Online as usual.
Cleaned my room. Instant Noodles as lunch.
FB again. MSN with my dear Ching Ching. Something has happened but she didn't tell me.
Played mahjong whole afternoon. Watched ants crawling on my table. =="
Went to bath. BUT, I forgot to bring my towel! =.=" shit! Came out wet, water's dripping.
Now...thinking about going out to have dinner alone.
Poor me. The life in INTI during Raya holiday. Not beneficial at all...
After dinner,(lucky me to have Marvin to accompany. Thx man.) bought eggs for breakfast.

Expiry date: 18 OCT. => an egg per day (have to) ==
But Marvin told me that half-boiled egg is unhealthy. Is that true?
p/s: Marvin, don't have to care about the 10 cents.

突然活跃的脑细胞

就在回去英迪学院的路途中，我想了很多。虽然今天只睡了不到两个小时，但是，想的事情却是一堆。可能今天的我比较感性吧。哈哈！

在巴士里，无聊的我望向我们常常都能看到的天空，心里却有种某名的感觉。一种幸福的感觉吧。突然觉得很幸运，因为我活在马来西亚。最重要的是，我的家人、朋友们、我，都还活着。看着碧蓝的天空，一朵朵纯白的云飘着，平时觉得平凡的天空顿时变得很特别、很有吸引力。我觉得我应该更珍惜在这里的时光。我想，要是我去到美国(hopefully)，就算看着同样的天空，感觉应该会很不同吧。这是不是验证了家乡的天空最美的说法？就这样，我呆呆地看着天空，一边听着歌。脑袋里闪过了很多想法，但现在我不记得了。

听着歌，静静地把眼睛闭上，我又想了很多。以前我听歌只在乎音乐，很少会去注意歌词。是秋伦教会了我如何感受歌词。要同时感应音乐和歌词，这样才是领悟那首歌的真正含义。当我听到了蓝又时唱的《秘密》时，让我想起了一个人。听着听着，我慢慢觉得大家讨厌的第三者或是所谓的狐狸精其实也很可怜。其实，每个人都应该有同等的机会去爱一个人。但是，因为缘份或时间的问题而导致她们比别人迟认识了她们的爱人，而且还不能去追求属于自己的爱情，必须压抑着自己的感觉，因为她们会被认定是第三者，不是很可怜吗？在《秘密》这首歌里，我听到了第三者的痛苦。当然，被抢走自己爱人的人也会痛苦。我没有否定这个事实。总之，爱情可以很满足、幸福，也可以是很残忍、痛苦、折磨人的。有时，我觉得爱情可有可无。它只是生活的点缀品，就像在一幅鲜艳的画上加上一层亮晶粉，更吸引人。但是，爱情总是那么诱人，因为，人人都希望被爱、被呵护、被疼。当然，我也不例外。但是，爱情所带来的痛，可不是我曾经能想象到的。直到，我真的痛过了，才知道那种痛真不简单，好难熬的一种感觉。

之后，我感性的脑细胞在听到《残废》这首歌时，又活跃了起来。这首歌很特别，尤其是chorus那个部份。每一句的最后一个字和下一句的第一个字是同音的。这首歌也让我想到一个朋友，一个放不下一段恋情的男性朋友。但是，我也不能为他做什么，因为那是他和他前女友的恋情，不是我能插手的事。感情的事情，是很难放下。有时，连时间的流逝也帮不了多少。这是个人的问题，看是否他/她自己放得下吗。曾经，我也放不下。即使现在，我也不能100%确定我是否已真的放下了，还是，我的心在欺骗着我自己。这就是每个人都会经历的吧？成长的一部份吗?

好像要到Nilai咯。还好今天没有很塞车。第一次在巴士里写部落格，而且还是华文的。

顺便讲讲play girl/play boy。我曾经想过要当play girl。（但是不知道条件够不够，哈哈！所以最终还是没做到。XD）现在的我不想谈恋爱咯！谈了两年半的恋爱，是时候休息了吧？刚好让我遇到一个也不想有女朋友的男生。所以，我在想，参他、跟他很好，应该会没有负担吧？两个根本说不上是情侣但是却好像有喜欢对方，再加上双方都不想开始恋情。这可不是所谓的暧昧关系。因为，双方都不想在一起。这是我的看法。这种关系不会有分手，也不会有伤痛。因为即使以后对方和别人开始谈恋爱，也不会影响到另一方。两个人依然是朋友。但是，别人看来却会认定他们是情侣。这种关系很可能会被人家认为是play girl/play boy的做法吧？（沉思。。。）

不能写了，Nilai好像是要到了。拜拜。

Last Day in Hometown before Going Back to INTI (Raya holiday)

Today was quite wonderful. I met two of my friends today. One in the morning and the other in the afternoon.

Before I go back to INTI, I have the chance to see him again. Talking to him feels nice. Too bad I didn't get his photo and his car's photo. He didn't allow me to take. He said he's too ugly to take photo. That's why taking photo of him is the thing that he dislikes most. But, I think he is quite good looking. With fair skin, light brown+golden colored hair, and tall, he looks like a guy with mixed blood. He is such an adorable guy. He even apologized to me for not letting me to take photos of him because I look quite unhappy that time. But, before I stepped out of his car, he promised me to let me take next time. I don't know whether he will keep his promise or not, but I'm actually hoping that he will. Too bad he needed to go to bank today at 3p.m., if not, I would have asked him to play bowling with me.

So, I reached home by 2 sth. After having my lunch, which is rendang (my mom cooked it, very delicious), another friend called, asking me out to have laksa. Yeah! He owes me the laksa treat for one and a half year already. Hahaha! At last, he paid what he had promised. After having some chocolates and sugarcane, I was quite full. But, I went out with Wei Siang to search for our laksa. We went to a few places, unfortunately, most were closed. In the end, we had our laksa at 二街. I think it's the so-called "Wai Sek Gai".We ordered two laksa from two different stalls as the first one he ordered wasn't nice. So, he ordered another one for me. Hehe! After chit-chatting for awhile, I demanded to go to other places as I couldn't stand the heat there. Then, he said he wanted to drive me to Jubli Park to let me expose more to the sun. What an evil Wei Siang. However, we ended up at Vinye's house. Hahaha! She was shocked a bit (I think), when I called her and told her that I was outside her house. Since Wei Siang and Vinye both are studying in USM, we had a nice chatting together. Then, we leaved Vinye's house around 5p.m. and went to 大鼻 to have my coconut blend (椰搅). I reached home around 5.30p.m. because he has some sort of meeting to attend. What a busy guy. Another date I guess. Haha! His network is quite wide. Before I left, he even asked me to be fatter someday. He's looking forward to see me becoming fatter. He complained that he always sees the skinny me but never a chubby one. Ya ya ya, as if I'm forcing myself to be skinny.

So, I have decided, to have a half-cooked egg every morning if possible. But, one friend of mine, I forgot who told me, that it's unhealthy to have egg every day. He said he read an article about that before, saying that it's better to eat just an egg per week, instead of eating one per day. Ah, I think it's Chee Pin who told me this, the dislike-photo-taking guy. Then, my sis advised me to do pumping every day. So, I am hoping that I won't be lazy but be consistent with it. Doing pumping and having an egg per day so that I can build muscles. I thought of jogging in INTI but, somehow, I don't really like jogging. Playing badminton is a better sport for me even if I have to suffer from muscular pain, which I'm experiencing now.

Overall, it's a tiring but satisfying day, the last day of Raya holiday at home before I go back to INTI. Once the school reopens, a lot of things will be pestering me. Applications, translation, tests, assignments......bla...bla...bla...Hope that I can deal with them. I missed one important thing. My first and hoping that it's the only Toefl test result is coming out soon! No matter what I get, I'll just accept it. Don't let my emotion gets in the way. Same thing goes to my statistics test 1 result.
Sigh~

5.0 Class Gathering, Year 2009

Today is a wonderful day afterall - played badminton in the afternoon with my sis, had dinner with my friend at secret recipe and at night, went to class gathering.
Long time didn't ride on Honda Civic. I love that car. Hehe, today I got the chance to ride in the car again. Still as sporty as before. 110km/h on small town road. I love the sound of the engine.
Next time I shall take photos of the car owner and the car. I planned to do so this evening but he didn't allow me to take even 1 photo of him. Ish...

Every year when there's Raya holiday, it's time to have class gathering!
As usual, the venue is at Old Town, at night.
After chatting there, definitely will go to K Box in Village Mall.
It's our next and last station.

^^@--Photos taken in Old Town--@^^

Wei Sheng (so-called Wayson), Choon Shian (s0-called Ah Ten) and Bao Quan (hiding himself).
Can't believe that Wayson wore our class T-shirt to the gathering.
Reason given: because he has no clothes to wear in SP. =.=" what the......


3 leng lui. Chooi Lin, Jooi Nin and Yi Xuan. 2 future doctors are here.


3 leng zai. KJ, KP, and KT. Haha!
KJ is good in studies (always the first in class);
KP is good in sports (most of the sports, esp basketball);
KT is good in music and singing (he can sing very well, the best singer in my class).


Yi Hui, Poh Li, Yimin and I.
Yi Hui: going to Germany soon.
Poh Li: studying in USM.
Yimin: good in singing and studying in UKM.
All are so clever.


Vinye (my lao po), Cai Li and I.
Coincidentally, Vinye wore the same type of clothes with me.
Vinye: USM; Cai Li: STPM, Form 6 in Sin Min.


And here we are, again.
There are still lots of photo. Too bad I don't have them with me now.
After I dl them from FB, if possible, I'll post them here. Hehehe!
Class 5.0 memories...Sweet sweet time.

Yeah! New photos grabbed from FB.

This is definitely taken after I left K Box. Guys~


Girls~ Have Fun!


Taken in old town, with my lovely nai ba, KJ.


With Yimin.


And the last one, photo of all of us that attended class gathering.
Class 5.0 is the best! Once a 5.0, always a 5.0 classmate.
Hooray! =)

Homemade Mooncakes at Grandma's house

First time leaving my house after I reached SP. Where to go?
Of course is my grandma's house, with my sis.
Both of us went to visit our grandma, uncle and aunt.
In addition, we went there to learn how to make mooncakes.


This is the best red bean paste mooncake that we had made because it's too hard to make.
In case you haven't noticed, it is hello kitty shape.


This is the second best. (Made by my sis, then rescued by my aunt.)


And this is the one I made, the worst among the other two.
I can't even know that it is a hello kitty. Hahaha!


These two are the prettiest among all.


Here, we have mickey mouse, hello kitty and the others.


My aunt and Buami, making "kong zai pia" in the kitchen.


Ta-da! "kong zai pia" that are going into oven soon. Hehehe.

Tomorrow is going to be an exciting day. Anticipating... =)

Raya! 9 days! Hohoho!

Selamat Hari Raya to all Malaysians! Yahoo! 9 days of holiday.
Finally, my brother is willing to drive me home.
Whole family is getting together again!
Papa, mama, kor kor, jie jie and me, except my beloved Bobo.
What to do during these 9 days?
Planning...... Hmmm...

1st: 5.0 class gathering! [21st Sept] Yeah, can see KJ, the nai ba d. Miss him so much! This time, there will be less crowd. Some have flown to US, Japan, Australia...... =(

2nd: If possible, I hope to gather all my NS friends and meet all of them. Last time when they gathered, I wasn't able to attend. How sad it was.

3rd: Badminton! My favorite. I didn't play or even hold my racket in the last few holidays at all. As I couldn't find anyone to play with and Bao Quan they all bo jio me! Hate you guys!

4th: Bowling! Another one of my favorite hobbies. I played once during the last holiday until my arm was so painful. (Result of playing 3 hours nonstop with Kok Peng.)

5th: Go to Penang! Ask MJ out to pool?? Hmm...not sure about that.

6th: Play Diablo II with kor kor? Need to screw Diablo AGAIN as I forgot to enter the portal last time. =.=" I was so blurred.

However, all these wouldn't happen if no one is willing to drive me. Daddy, why don't you let me drive? :( I didn't drive for more than a year already. I also have a poor sense of direction. =.=

Recently, there are many things happening in my life.
1st: TOEFL [12th Sept 2009]
Started preparing it on Wednesday. Went there with a plan to retake, but now still considering.
The night before Friday, talk to a friend of Kam. Only slept for 10 hours in 2 days. So, having Toefl during the period was tiring.
After the test, went to Sunway with Xiao Ting, Sin yi and the most adorable couple (Sik Hoe and Michelle). It was raining at that time. What did caring Sik Hoe do?

Third time to Sunway Pyramid. First time to Red Box. We sang for 3 hours more and spent 193MYR in total. *Sweat* Then, watched movie - Where Got Ghost. I'm not sure whether it's my the first time watching ghost movie or not (not really a ghost movie actually). Luckily I have my jacket to "protect" me from viewing it. Hahaha! Same goes to Sin Yi. But she seemed to be braver than me. In the end, we reached INTI quite late, around midnight. Since I was too tired, I slept like a pig once I reached my room; only woke up at 1pm the next day. =.="

2nd: Friendship Problems [13th Sept 2009]
It is the first time that I heard something like this, "you are too friendly, I'm not used to it", making me felt like a weirdo for being too friendly. I never know that being friendly can be a wrong thing to do. Aren't people who are Aries should be very friendly and active? Don't say that I blame all the things on horoscope, but I do believe some description and explanation of horoscope. Because of this pop-up problem, Kam, his friend and I weren't in the mood at all that night. [Sorry Kam, even though you have told me that it has nothing to do with me, but I still feel that I do have the responsibility in this matter.] What happened in the end? I slept less than 2 hours, as I only slept at 6.30 am the next day.

3rd: Skype + Accounting Test 1 [14th Sept 2009]
However, I need to clarify something. There's another reason for me to sleep late. It was because of knowing another new friend who is in Canada now. We skyped from midnight till morning. It's nice to know new friend. I was surprised that I managed to be quite energetic for my accounting test which was at 10 a.m. I guess bathing in the morning do freshen me up. Anyway, I ended up replenishing my energy level by sleeping from 4 p.m. - 8p.m.

Lesson learned:
Do not wait for someone who is not worth it. No matter what you feel, never forget what is the most important and appropriate thing to do. If possible, ignore what you feel so that you can concentrate in rational things that are going to affect your life profoundly.
Do not have to be so initiative in some of the things as people might get annoyed with you. So, just stay away.

To Yoke Ching

No matter how far we are from each other, I believe that our hearts will be together.

Friends that stand by your side when you are in troubles are true friends. Friends that won't expect any return from you, friends that won't deceive you, friends that won't be jealous of you, and friends that believe you with all their hearts, they are your true friends.

"You are my best friend." This is a brief but meaningful sentence. At least, it means a lot to me.

I know you want me to be great in my life. I believe that you want me to be happy with my life, where there's no sorrow or heart-rending events. I understand your hope of me being hardworking, and consistent in my studies and whatever I'm doing. You want us to be successful in the future. Even though you didn't really tell me all these, I can read what is in your heart.

I believe that people are born to be good, to be an angel. As I have told you before, it's the environment, bad exposures and wrong teachings that lead them the wrong way. So, forgive those that may have hurt you. Please don't let your heart walk the wrong path.

My friend,be patient and do believe in your ability. Whatever hardship you face, see it as a challenge that the God gives you. When you are helpless, disappointed or sad, remember, your best friend is always here to back you up.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

Do take care of yourself well. I know you won't fall sick as often as I will. Take care of your diet. I don't want to see you turning into a pig next year. Do lower down your voice when you talk. Hehe. :P
Don't play too much. Study more. Other than that, skype more with me. Wahahahaha!

I'm going to miss you a lot. I know you will too.
I miss hugging you. I miss the time we've been together. I miss sleeping on the same bed with you (even though you hit me quite hard at night when we were sleeping). I miss watching you wash clothes. I miss the time we argue like an enemy (but we will always forgive each others after the fight with no hard feelings). I miss the time we revise microeconomics together. I miss your laugh. I miss your moon-like face. I miss hearing you call me "sei pat poh", "sei yeh", "yaksi", "soh gei". I miss fighting with you (which have been recorded by your roommate). I miss the time we criticizing people (but this is bad though). I miss singing with you in my room. I also miss molesting you. Haha!
p/s: Seriously, we are not lesbians.

Short semester

Here it goes. Another new semester. My second last semester and first short semester.
I don't know whether I will be very busy or not. But, as far as I concern, there's a lot of things to do before and after the semester is over.

12th Sept - TOEFL ( haven't started preparing yet ) ; Yoke Ching will be leaving M'sia.
[sorry my dear. You know that I won't be able to hug you for the last time before you leave M'sia] So what? Right? True friendships will never be influenced by small matters like this.
29th Nov - Returning of "hiao" Edwin from Australia [A gathering is coming!]

What about Raya? Hmm...Maybe I'm not going back. I don't want to be a tuna just for 9 days of holiday. So? Going to rot in my room, or if possible, going to Genting Highland with siblings?
I have no idea. But one thing for sure, I'm not going back by bus nor flight. :)

New wishes:
Be healthy. [Ya right. I only know how to wish but never really put a real effort in making it becomes true.]
Be hardworking. [Said so for 2 sems d. Still, failed in the end. Too playful?]
Be independent. [Not independent enough yet. Still a long way to go.]

What Mr. Nathan has taught me last semester? Other than calculus 1, there are 3 words.
HUMBLE, KIND, and KNOWLEDGEABLE.
Did I manage to do all? No. I will only know the answer before I'm old or dying.

What's going to happen in this semester? Most people have no idea. I'm not a fortune teller but I know that this semester is going to be hectic.

Johor! My Sis's Convo!

While waiting for the delayed flight, I took photo with my mom.
Mother and daughter do look alike. =)

Where were we heading to? KL!
This was my sister's plan. We went to KL first.
Then my brother drove us ( dad, mom and me) to Skudai, Johor.
Just to attend my sis's convo, her first degree.
Deng! Deng!

Isn't she pretty? Ya, and she's cute too. XD


After the convo, we took a photo together outside Dewan Iskhandar.

She received lots of gifts from her juniors and friends, and admirers too. XD



My brother bought her a petshop sling bag and a hug pig soft toy. Almost RM 200.
3 of us taking photo around campus.


This is the chinese name of the hotel.
After taking 60 over photos around campus, we headed to our hotel, Kingston hotel.
I called it the pendrive hotel. :)



The ceiling of the hotel.


It was a tiring day as you can see above.
My mom and my big brother, waiting for the hotel to clean the room.


My sis, standing in front of the counter, waiting.

This hotel is quite nice. Too bad I didn't take any photo of the room.
RM113.40 for a room with a double bed and one single bed, with attached bath room too.
It's clean and comfortable. Not bad.

Here are some photos that she took around her campus.


Susu, her good friend.

Joseph and my sis. He is one year younger than my sis.


My sis looks very pretty in this photo. Too bad the photo is too small.


PELTAC's director and PELTAC's secretary. :)