Fly For the First Time

Yesterday was the first time I fly. I like this experience. When the plane was ready to take off, I could feel the momentum and the speed of the plane. It was so fast. I like that feeling. And slowly, I can feel the lifting of the plane. Since I was sitting near the wings of the plane, I could see the wing and its movement. When the plane started to fly up to the sky, I could feel the trembling. The scene from the window of the plane was fantasting! I nearly thought that I was in heaven. The beauty of the clouds accompanied me all the way from KL to Penang. I found out that the sky has many levels of cloud. The clouds looked soft and spongy. White in color, so pure... and looks tasty. I also noticed the shape that formed by cloud. There were dinosaurs fighting( which made me thought of someone, miss that person ), dogs chasing each other and other shapes.

以为

以为。。。
其实，是我自己想太多了。以为这个以为那个。其实全都不纯在。
婉艳，成熟一点吧。别那么单纯。
酱快相信人是错的。容易投入感情，是更错的。
要学会玩得起，以前你都能，你最能玩得起的，怎么现在变成了懦夫？
以前潇洒的你呢？不受约束的你呢？不为任何事而烦恼的你呢？
会受伤的人就是那些投入感情的人。你。。。不可以再这样了。
远离一切，忘了一切，抛弃一切，独立一些，勇敢一些，坚强。。。
这样，就不再会受伤害了。我真的应该要学会保护自己。
而我的保护方式 = 逃避！
常常逃避问题，希望上天来保护我，希望时间帮我解决。
这就是我。逃避是我的首要方法。

First Time Driving At INTI

After eating with sj, he allowed me to drive his car. I didn't drive car for a long time. I didn't even know which one is break or pedal. Luckily his car is auto. I drove one round in INTI, telling him about the Jalan Pulau Penang and how to drive to my block because he said always get lost in INTI. We talked a lot tonight. We ate burger, beef burger and hotdog burger because the fish burger special that he wanted to try is out of stock.

The night after socio trial.

After having our dinner at 10 something, we went back to hostel and this is what we did.


This one is not taken after the trial. It is the picture of Betty (left) and June Job (right), which is taken during the mass suicide trial's break.
















Joanne took this picture when I was sitting at this position. She asked me to turn my face to the side.

















The security guard (left), Betty hiao po (middle) and June Job (right) are acting cool.

They will be the best friends ever!

hahaha!!!













Joanne tried to pose like she is my girlfriend. haiz...


















Joanne tried to be cool but she turns out to be not cool at all. haha!











Photo is taken outside yoke ching's room after we came back from the socio trial.















I'm acting cool, Joanne is being sweet. Such contrasting!
haha!!!















In this photo, the kiss that Joanne gave me makes me look like a small kid who is kissed by a pretty Jie Jie.
So sad... but maybe many guys hope that this will happen to them because Joanne is really pretty.

Luck can change everything.

Have you ever thought or imagined about the life you are in now?
In the past, I thought my life will be just as normal as my sister or others. After SPM, apply to only matriculation and JPA. Usually the only path for me is form 6, just like my sister used to be because I know I will never get JPA or matriculation.

I never knew that my life when I am 18 will be what it's like right now. I also don't know that SPM has the power to change a person life so much.

Can you believe that a person who is always the bottom 6 in the class can have such luck to get what others thought he can't get? He himself also can't believe it.

Because of the good luck he has in SPM, his life changed totally from what he had expected. He also have a hard time in his studies because he is not as smart as others. He has not been so hardworking before in his life. In secondary school, he just fool around all the time. He is the naughty one and the joker. He didn't do his homework all the time and always copy others. He only studies the day before the test.

Everyday he didn't eat breakfast to school. Now, he eats breakfast almost everyday. He even cleans his own room which he won't do it in the past.

Because of this luck, he met the best lecturer ever. He learnt about many things. He realized how big the world is and how tiny he is. He learnt to be humble and tolerant.

Because of this luck, he had changed a lot. This luck opens a whole new world to him and put him in the reality world. In the past, he just lived in a fairy tale. Live happily without worry. Now, everyday he is worrying and feeling stress.

Busy October

After raya holiday, the life of hell has come. Damn busy!
2 CSC assignments, each contains 10 marks.
Sociology trial, 30 marks.
CSC test, 10 marks.
Sociology test, 5 marks.

At last, the socio trial has finished. Even though I lost the case, I didn't feel very sad. I just accept it.
I've done 1 of the CSC assignments too. Now only left the Front Page!
I suppose to have the tests this week and I didn't even start studying for them. But luckily both the tests are postponed to next week tuesday and wednesday. Still, there are not enough time to really study for them because I need time to complete my CSC assignment which is needed to pass up next tuesday. Hope that i manage to finish the front page assignment tomorrow.

Wah, so tired today. So late already. Can't stand any longer. Go to brush my teeth and sleep now.

My Socio Trial Outfit, the night before the trial.

Since I'm a lesbian in the socio trial civil case, I need to have a tom boy looks. So, I borrowed Marvin's black color shirt, Ying Ting's brown color pants, Emily's shoes and Yong Bin's white nike cap.


This were taken last night after I tried Marvin's clothes.











Ying Ting hiao po wanted to take picture with me.
I was trying to be cool and you see her. She was pretending to be my girl...eww! I prefer to have Sally Sax to be my girl since she is my lesbian partner in the trial.

Do I look cool in this picture?





Here she is again.


Hiao po Betty! ( Betty is her name in the trial)











The hiao po Ying Ting was wearing Sin Yi's cap.

Unfortunately, I didn't take any photo with Yong Bin's cap on.










Hiao Po Ah Ting and I were trying to be coool.

Haha!

Hence, we were doing this pose.













Acting cool again~









A serious tom boy face













This is what I look like when I'm wearing cap.

Cool, right?

Yeng leh?

Do I look handsome with the cap on?










I was trying to take nice and handsome picture.


See that sha po Ying Ting? Becoming a ghost beside me. Ruined my nice picture...sigh~

Calculus Test, MMP and Raya Holiday.

Wednesday...busiest day this week because I have 3 classes ( 6 hours ) . OMG, the raya holiday is just around the corner. I will be going back on the 26th Sep night. Actually, I don't feel like going back. Not because of not missing my family, it's just that after raya holiday, final will be just 20+ days away! On this friday, I'm going to have a calculus test which is 25 marks for my total calculus score. I've done badly in last time calculus test which makes me to be extremely hard to get A- in my calculus. Those silly mistakes in the first calculus test :-( ng ng ng!!!

Today, I went to sport hall to join MMP (mentor mentee program) with Ying Ting. Actually it's quite okay, not as boring as I thought but it's not so fun overall. Just that by joining it, I get to know a few people. The games are quite okay. The best part is the dinner part, haha! I had my dinner there. 3 fried nangka ( don't know what it's called in English ) are my dinner. It is so nice! I love it. This also means that later I'll have my supper, maybe I'll have it outside, depends on whether any friend is willing to go out with me and whether I have studied my calculus or not.

Hang Out with CCS Club's New Friends.

After the lantern night, I didn't contact with them anymore. Today, Ah Heong suddenly asked me to join them for a gathering. So, i just went there on my own, alone, because Hae Ju, Emily, Jie Hui, Sin Yi are not around. After that, I went back to my room. At first I want to go to play badminton with them but since nobody accompanies me, so I decided not to go because I'm still not very close to them. Then, later Ah Heong called me, asking me to join them for basketball. So, I went. Quite okay la...Just a bit boring because I don't know how to play basketball. I hurt 2 guys because I forgot to cut my nails. So, I scratched them unintentionally. Feel sorry for them. Sorry guys.

My First Celebration of Mooncake Festival at INTI-UC

Happy Mooncake Festival!
I can't believe that I really went out with Sin Yi to play lantern last night when my calculus assignment still had not finished. But luckily, I managed to finish it before I went to sleep.
Last night, Jie Hui, Sin Yi, Joanne and Tzin Yee went out with me to play lantern. Tzin Yee as a photographer as she doesn't want to play lantern. She said this is her principle. Joanne burnt 1 lantern and nearly burn another one. There are also Sin Yi's friends but I'm not very close with them. Lanterns are really pretty! And it looks very romantic.

Wei Siang's Friendster Blog

~ True ~

你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。 .

也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。 .

不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。 .

他遇到困难时， 你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺 一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。你宁愿这样关心他， 总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。做不成男女朋友，当他 那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？你心中的这个特别的朋友…? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . .

Play Badminton At INTI-UC Court (mph)

Today is the first time I play badminton at mph ( multipurpose hall). Only Jie Hui, Rachel and I went there. I didn't play badminton for a long time. The feeling of playing badminton in a badminton court is really fun and relaxing because there are no air resistance or any disturbance. I just wish that I can go back to my hometown and play with my former classmates. I must train badminton more often so that I can keep on improve on my skills. I'm looking forward for the next badminton game. I also hope that next time the badminton court has a badminton net because just now my friends and I played badminton without the net because unlike my hometown, INTI-UC do not supply nets. We need to bring our own nets. But this doesn't spoil my good mood today. haha!

Second Trip To Giant Hypermarket!

After today morning class - sociology, I went back to my room and watched movie. At 12pm, I went out with my friends ( Jie Hui, Tzin Yee, Joyce, Ying Ting, Emily and Hae Ju) to Giant! We bought our daily stuffs there and ate our lunch at KFC! What a nice meal! Especially the cheesy wedges! OMG! It's damn nice even though the meal cost me RM 8.60. I bought biscuits, milk... I also bought a new clothes, peach color. I can't believe I can find a clothes that is my size and it's the style I like. It just cost me RM 8, very cheap, right? I spent about RM 40 in this trip.

This is me, wearing the new peach clothes and holding the horse toy of Ying Ting.


In Ying Ting's room. Her laptop and bed. I'm in my new top and a pair of normal shorts.

How is My College Life?

How do we live our college lives?
Most of friends said that as college students, we must enjoy life! Don't just study the whole day!
Ya, I also agree with them. For me, I think college students should enjoy life but it does not mean that we do not need to take care of our studies! All things must be balance. You can't be studying whole day! My teacher told me, we should study for 30 minutes, then we must take a 5 minutes break. Other than studies, we must also maintain the relationships with friends. To do so, we can't be in the room whole day, like a bear hibernates in a cave during winter. I recommend college students to have their own blogs. Blogging is not a waste of time. It's not only encouraging me to express myself, it's also acting as my public diary. I can refer back to all these posts after a few years, when all the things can be different then. I can recall all the golden memories that I have here. This is what we called "life experiences".
I think we should do all the crazy things when we have the chance to do so but DO NOT OVER THE BORDER. I've done some of the things that normal people won't practice. I slept with Ah Ching and Ah Ting on two combined beds. I created a game called "pok pok choi". We played water while we were bathing. We eat together, joke together, study together, play together... I just wish that time will stop here but it's impossible. What I can do now is cherish the time left for us to live together. :-(

My First Night! 'o' !!!

I gave my first night to who? Ah Ching and Ah Ting. Actually nothing has happened. I just slept in their room last night. We combined the two beds and I slept at the middle. Ah Ching has invited me many times already. Since we were planning to study sociology together, so I decided to sleep in her room last night. That night wasn't a very good night because sleeping at the middle of two beds is not comfortable at all. Ah Ching's bed is newer than Ah Ting's bed, thus, one bed is higher than the other and I slept in the middle of both beds. Can you imagine it?
After I slept, Ah Ting opened the air-con which made the room became very cold. I was awaken by the coldness in the room. I was too lazy to move my body so I just ignored it. In the end, I am sick now-FLU. I didn't sleep well last night. Luckily, I still can remember a bit what I have studied last night. Ohya, today my stomach was very painful. I think it's caused by the "mua ji" that Ah Ting bought it from a club. Nevermind, since I'm feeling better now.
Okay, back to the first night. Even though I criticized on it, it will still be one of the memories I can't forget in my life. I won't forget the happy time that I had with Ah Ching and Ah Ting in 4th floor, Block S, INTI-UC. Oh, there's another add-on point. My butt has been molested by Ah Ting's leg 10 times. She used her leg to touch or push it when I was studying. Maybe she wanted to test the sponginess of it. Haha!!! Just kidding.

At Last! Socio Test is Over!

After studying like hell for I don't know how many days, I took my sociology test. Out of thirty, I don't know how many marks I can get but I do hope the mark is high as I really study hard for this time. I don't know whether I do well in the test or not, but I do glad that it's over. This is the first time I really study hard. When I was in secondary school, I have never studied like this before, maybe only before important exam in the school, such as SPM and PMR. I can't imagine that I really do all the assignment that the teachers gave me, which is not my usual style. I was the bad, naughty and lazy student last time. I don't know when did I change. Maybe environment or the friends do have effect on me, making me change to a better student. I like this change. However, to maintain this change is not an easy task. I need to discipline myself, which is my weakest part. DISCIPLINE! If I could discipline myself, I wouldn't be playing games, watching movies, chatting...all the time without taking my studies seriously. I'm very impressed by people who can be consistent in his work and can achieve his dream no matter what happen, for instant, Dr. Lim Ho Peng. This is what I couldn't do it my whole life.

.Which One is More Important? Happiness? Or Achievement ( dreams)?

I'm facing so many problems now. All these problems can only be solved by myself. When someone is having pressure, and I mean huge pressure, he won't be able to be happy or optimistic. He will lose his smile and cheerful face. He can't remember when is the last time he smiled. He certainly won't remember how his laugh was sounded. When everyone is improving but you are standing at the same place without even moving a step forward, what do you feel? Don't tell me you feel nothing. If you know the feeling, then you will know what I'm feeling right now.

Do you know that sometimes when a person is smiling, doesn't mean that he is happy? Even though you may think that the person is a very cheerful person and he smiles or laugh every single day, but is he really happy? I mean TRUE happiness. Someone told me a sentence before. He told me that "no matter you are sad or happy, you also have to live, then why don't you try to live your life happily?". I know the person is telling me the truth but, do you think that everyone is able to make himself happy everyday? I don't think so and it is true. However, we must also try our best to live happily, at least we try.

Most people think that we should pursue our own dreams and things that we want. If what we chase will only give us satisfaction but not happiness, then is it worth to be chased?

ENL Presentation Has Over! What Things Come After It?

At last, my ENL presentation has over. I did not do well in this presentation. My english standard really have a huge gap between all my classmates. After this presentation, in the future, there will always be another one. I can't be lucky everytime in a presentation or interview. How am I going to face it in the future?
Next, it is the time to face my sociology test. I thought I can study tonight but I failed. I was watching movie the whole night while my roommate was studying. Really contrasting, right? Tomorrow is Friday! Is my friend, Ah Heong's birthday! Hope my friend, Ah Ching and I will have a "bear bear hong" night. Haha! I sure most people will not understand what is "bear bear hong". This is the secret between her and me. I don't know whether we can have a bear bear hong night because we need to study sociology. I think after socio, there will still be calculus. The second test for calculus. So depressed now but I still can't control myself not to play around but to concentrate on my studies. (sigh......)

Presentation and Sociology Test!!! :-(

Oh no! After csc, there is stil socio test! I thought it'll be on next Friday but the lecturer set it to be on Wednesday! Only have 1 week to study all the four chapters! This time the test is 30 marks, not like last time, only 5 marks... :-(

Tomorrow is my presentation day for ENL. Tonight i need to settle all the presentation thing, especially the timing. I must make sure I don't talk more than 7 minutes and not less than 5. My presentation mark is about 20%. It's quite a lot. So I must do well in it and gain confident in speaking through this presentation. I'm so scared! I'm bad in speaking and I'm always nervous in speaking, especially in oral test, presentation and interview! Don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. =.=

CSC test has just over!

At last, my csc test is over. Actually the test is not so hard but because i didn't study hard enough, i left 2 essay questions blank. Thus, i lost 6 marks already. After the csc test is TOEFL class but i didn't go. Tomorrow I have a presentation, ENL presentation. Speaking is the thing that i scare the most, including interview. So I don't know whether I can succeed in the presentation or not. I haven't finish compiling or rearranging my ENL file too, which is needed to submit to my lecturer tomorrow. After tomorrow, I think I have to start studying again. This time will be sociology. Sociology mid-term test is coming soon! This time is not just 5 marks, it is 30 marks. Last time i didn't do well but luckily it is only 5 marks but this time I really need to make sure I will answer the essay questions good enough to get me at least 25 over 30, which is a very tough task. No point complaining now, right? So, I'm going to prepare my presentation and arrange my ENL file now.

Poker, Friend's Visit, Class 5.0

My CSC test is coming. It's on the 3rd of Sep. Do you know what I'm doing now? Playing online poker games and watching movie the whole day! I promise myself to work hard but I cant hold myself from playing games. How to concentrate?? My concentration is always the worst among all my siblings. Today is the first time a classmate of mine, Tun Jie visits me at INTI-UC. I took him to dining hall to have our lunch. After the lunch, I taught him how to play the online poker games. (How terrible I am to teach somebody to play games.) We stopped playing games after my laptop had run out of battery. Then we just sat down and talked for 1 hour until 5pm. It's nice to have a friend to visit me, meaning that I'm not forgotten by people. Haha! I really miss my form 5 classmates. They are very kind and funny. They will help me if they could, a group of unselfish friends and they can be trusted.
TO CLASS 5.0 (2007):
I MISS ALL OF YOU
HOPE TO GATHER WITH YOU SOON! THIS RAYA HOLIDAY!