Just Myself

A Little Thing that Brought Me to a Great Realization

2011-12-30T06:24:00.000-06:00

He is the guy that,
when I am scared, he will be by my side
when I need him, he will try his best to be there;
even when he's really tired or when he's sleeping,
he would wake up, get out from the bed and guide me through the dark at night just because I told him that I was scared to go there alone.
This, makes him "the" guy.
People might think that a guy waking up in the middle of the night and accompany a girl to the kitchen isn't that great of a deal.
But to me, other than my dad, he is the second man who would do that for me.

我还是长不大

2011-01-24T23:27:00.000-06:00

不晓得是什么原因。我总是那么的幼稚。
难道是我不想长大吗？心里真的存有这个想法很多遍了。但，残酷的现实总有办法将我拉回现实世界。

20岁那年的农历新年，差不多全家都跟我说了同样的一句话：“婉艳，你都要20岁了，不要再这么幼稚了，应该成熟一些。要有20岁人的样子。”
爸爸说过了，妈妈也说了，甚至连姐姐也重复了很多遍。。。。。。
那时，我觉得真的很烦。虽然我知道他们都是为我好，他们说的都是有道理的，但是，我幼稚的心一直拼命地抵抗这个现实。

到了独自飞到美国修学的日子了 --- 又是一个对我来说可怕的现实。
自以为很坚强地飞来美国。很自以为事地尽量适应美国的生活。什么问题都往自己身上扛，因为我知道，除了我自己，是没有人可以帮我扛的，虽然我经常都在想着逃避的选择。做事很小心翼翼。非常害怕会得罪人，尤其是我天身就神经大条。我不会在意或我能接受的事情，可能大多数人都不能接受。也可能是这样，所以我还蛮容易得罪人的。幸好，上天对我不薄。送了三位了解我本性和为人的好朋友。其实，我不算很贪心吧。我觉得有三位已经很高兴及满足了。可惜，远水不能救近火。但，偶尔有他们陪我聊天，我已觉得欣慰。

经历了一个孤独的学期，我以为我终于长大了、成长了、成熟了。可是，今天发现我还是幼稚的。我，就像个小孩子一样，将当天做了的好事通通一字不漏地仔细告诉他。就像个长不大的孩子，将当天抄好的笔记或做好的功课或考得好的成绩单呈现给他看，希望获取赞赏及鼓励的话或礼物。

原来，我就是那么的幼稚、那么的长不大、那么的小孩子、那么的白痴。。。果然是神经大条，不懂得怎么做人。

我本身的存在就是一个问题？一个累赘？一个包袱？

可能吧。

看来这期间，我太看得起自己了。=D

Great Efforts Do Pay Off

2010-12-19T05:39:00.004-06:00

Since the day I came to U.S., I have not updated anything here.
Feel sorry for those who have visited my blog for updates, especially my best friends.

This would be the first post written in U.S.

Around 4.45 am [ya, I know it's really late now. Daddy, don't scold me... IT'S HOLIDAY! just a few days. XD]
I began checking my FB and my email for updates after watching the whole tvb drama - 谈情说案. Had been wanted to watch it but I didn't have time for the whole drama. [I know I'll keep on watching until I have finished it, just like yesterday and today.]

But this is not the point.

It's about the great news I have found out after checking my email and blackboard!

Finally, after sending an email to my English professor, Joseph Scott, to ask him about my final grade, he replied me on the 18th morning!!! [but I didn't check till then.] He told me I got an A for the course! 930/1000
IT IS SO UNBELIEVABLE!!!
I thought I was going to get only an A- for it. All my efforts paid off!

Then, I quickly checked my blackboard to see if grades for other courses were out, and they are!!!

I have to thank my U.S. History TA, Darin Tuck, for giving me 96 for my finals. I would never expect such score for this course. It is so surprising! Because, without a complete study guide like the midterm before, I thought I was going to screw up the final, especially having 2 finals with only half an hour difference in between. [1-3pm: US History ; 3.30pm-5.30pm: Stat] I studied madly in my room. Kept memorizing the facts repeatedly. It was even the first thing that came to my mind when I woke up from my sleep the day before the two finals. Ah~ thank god... my efforts... they gave me the perfect reward. A minus is considered good enough. I feel really grateful.

Stat result has not yet updated. I guess it'll be out by this coming Monday. Hope I did well. Stat final was a very risky exam. If there's a part of a question wrong, the answer for others would be wrong too. If so, it would be a disaster. =(

As for Art Appreciation, final score is out but, she is still considering to curve the exam. Hopefully, I can get an A even though I did badly in final. got 12 questions, which is very unexpected cuz I studied very hard for it too. I can even remember what I've studied for the final. Because of the extra credits I got and the participation points she gave me, I think I have a high chance of getting an A. HOPEFULLY. pobi pobi...上天保佑。

It's the first time since college that I don't have to cry over my results for every semester. I don't have to feel so bad or depressed. It's the first time that I really work hard for those courses. erm...haiz, but I still have to admit that I did play a lot too. Like FB games, skype, chatting, online shopping, watching drama and series episodes thro PPS etc... No matter what, I feel like a crazy girl right now, for smiling involuntary, but having the feeling to cry too. I don't know why. It's a new feeling to me.

Anyway, I have to thank all my professors, instructors and friends who have helped me in this semester. I feel lucky to have known you, to have encountered such nice people.

Not to forget my mom, who has prayed for me. I was too nervous about the finals that I lost my confidence. Therefore, I asked my mom to pray for me, 拜神. She told me not to just rely on God. I should decide my destiny with my own effort. God can't help much without me working hard for my goals. Thanks for encouraging me, Mi~ I love you! I told you that I did study. Do you believe in me now? Since little, you have always scolded me for being a lazy pig. Always play and watch TV. You said you have never seen me studying before. Ya, you were right. I seldom studied in those years when I was in secondary school or primary school. I screwed up my first semester in INTI for playing too much like I used to before that. And I'll always remember the message papa sent me, "don't dig your own grave". Sorry for having both of you to worry about my results and health. I hope this great news will cheer you up, just like the night when you hugged me after we found out that I've gotten the scholarship. I know that this is just the beginning. I hope I won't let you down for the coming semester. I am very sure that it's full of new challenges, maybe they are even tougher. But I have learned that "everyone's life is full with challenges. they seem very hard at first, but when we look back after solving them, they seem so easy".

Life with no challenges is not life.

I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER TONIGHT

2010-08-05T11:59:00.000-05:00

What a nice family I have.
And how nice my family has treated me, especially my dad and my elder sister.

Thank you for the help.

To wake me up to see the reality.

This help is really growing me up.

To understand the wonderful family I have.

Since Form 2, I have learned a good moral lesson - to thank people.

But I never thought that I will get to apply it to my family.

I thought I will going to apply to outsiders only.

Thank you guys, now I know.

And forever, I will remember.

Updates for Random Post

2010-08-04T11:56:00.000-05:00

It's night meaning it's morning in Missouri.

So, I got my email from both International Student Coordinator and Selina Zhu (person who subleases her room to me).

The coordinator, Becky told me that I have to take both exams and Mizzou might prefer me to have my MMR vaccination there and TB test MUST be done there. Vaccination Cost: around $150!!! So expensive!

As for Selina, she replied me that the apartment is on the third floor, HIGHEST floor of the building.
I AM SO DEAD.
However, there is one good news. The shuttle bus is FREE! So, I can save $35.00. Awesome~

Digression:
I learned how to play Minesweeper today! I know I'm lame, for learning this game so late. Anyway, thanks to my dear Jishuen Kam. ^.^

Random

2010-08-04T07:51:00.000-05:00

I dare not count down for the date. I know it's getting near. I do not dare to count if it's next week. Just let it be.

Ying Ting was saying that she hopes she can go to the states early. I was like "what?!". Ok, I really hope that I can stay longer here in Malaysia so that I can have a trip to JB. Hope to see him and his nephews. They are so "chu bi".
[From his brother's album]

-Ryan-

-Ronan running in the front, Ryan chasing at the back-

Too bad that even if I have finished packing all the things needed, I don't think my dad would allow me to go to KL or JB as well. He's scared that bad things like accident might happen or I might be too tired after the trip, etc. =( I really wish I could go there.

Just finished packing one of my luggage bags. Weighed it on a normal weighting scale. 21-22kg. Now I have to think what to put in another luggage bag as base because most of my clothes have been put into the first bag to be the base. I think the second bag would mostly be filled with shampoos, toothpastes, cosmetics, facial cleansers, stationeries, shoes, inner wear, medicines and etc.

This morning, I received an email from my uni's officer, sending me a link containing my orientation schedule pdf file. Unhappy to realize that I have English Placement Exam and ALEKS Math Placement Exam on the same day which will be on 17th August in the morning 8am until afternoon. =( So I wrote an email to her, asking her whether I must take those exams and if I do, what are covered in the exams. Hopefully I'll receive her email by tonight. I have health screening on 16th as well. I think it might be TB test.

Recently, I just realized that The Reverse [the place where I'm going to live for a year] has no private bus for the residents. So, every month, I have to pay extra $35.00 for the bus fares. How disappointing. This makes me think of moving after staying there for a year. Hmm...I shall keep this thought to myself first.

Moreover, I have missed out one important aspect when I chose The Reserve. I wasn't aware that there are many floors in building of The Reserve. I don't actually know how many floors are there in one typical building, but I guess it's either 3 floors or 4. If I happened to live on the highest floor, it would be like living in Block S forth floor again. That was terrible!!! Imagine I reach there at noon with 2 huge luggages, total of 46kg plus with a hand luggage of 5kg plus a backpack. I have no idea how I am going to carry the two huge luggages where each weighs 23kg up to forth floor. Even if I live in third floor, this is going to be a huge pain in the ass. I just have to pray hard and hope that there's someone, may be a maintenance guy will help me to carry those luggages for me, free. I think I'm running out of hope because I notice that I kept using "hope" for my problems.

Finally, it's DONE!

2010-08-03T03:38:00.002-05:00

After struggling really hard for almost a month, I'm officially done with my housing. ^.^v

First of all, I felt really bad for breaking my promise to a girl. Luckily she has found someone. If not, I can't imagine how terrible the issue will be. I guess she definitely hates me now. So, again, I am sorry.

Secondly, thanks to Hoay Lynn, Lit Ung and Chi Kai in helping me for the room at The Reserve. If Hoay Lynn had not told me about the room, I wouldn't have found it. That was super helpful. Thanks a lot my pretty senior. As for Chi Kai, thanks for calling me and answering my questions. However, you gave me the wrong info about the way to pay online. As long as you have VISA or MASTERCARD, regardless of which bank and which country, you can pay online. And my facial expression turned to =.=" when I saw the back of my dad's credit card written "VALID WORLDWIDE" in capital letter. As for Lit Ung, thanks for spending time to listen to my whines and story, plus explaining to me the real situation to clear my mind.Thank you guys.

During the process of finding a suitable and great housing, my best friend, Lexie Lee has definitely been very helpful to me. She tried to help me in every possible ways which I felt really grateful to have her as my best friend, even until now or maybe in the future, I will remember it. Besides, when I nearly collapsed, Jishuen stood by my side, helping me to find available housing during the night until early morning when he could just sleep. I felt lucky to you by my side every time to back me up. Thank you, my dearest Lexie and Jishuen.

Guess how much do I have to pay? $1125.00
Yes! It is in Dollar, not Malaysia Ringgit.
Here is the breaking down of the total:
Deposit is $750 [two-month rent]
First installment payment is $375 [first-month rent]

Expensive huh? But it's nearer than the one I found in the first place. It's 2.4 miles away from my campus. The rent includes water, internet and all the other amenities. The great thing about it is that it's fully furnished with full-size bed, dresser, built-in computer desk, ceiling fan, couch, chair, coffee and end table, TV stand, dining room table, four chairs. [copy paste from the webpage. XD] Though I have no idea now of who I'll be living with but luckily it has individual bedroom lock. Plus, it's great to have bathroom attached to my bedroom.
Here's the example of floor plan:

Some other photos on facebook:

[These photos are from Chi Kai's photo album. I hope he won't mind. =)]

-Living Room-

-Kitchen-

-Bathroom-

-View from Balcony- (I think)

By checking out his album, only then I know that his girlfriend is a good cook. I think I'll be going to his place quite often. ^.^ [paisei har...本小姐是不会煮饭菜的]

Hope his girlfriend won't just cook specifically for him only. Haha! [I want 'tumpang']

p/s: I can wash the dishes after having the meal... heee heee...

我知道, But I Just Miss You Too Much

2010-07-08T11:56:00.001-05:00

从来没想过
不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你
陪着我心痛

一切都是我
太过骄纵
以为你会懂
一直忘了说
我有多感动 [Thanks for the rose and every other things]

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由
我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后
还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时
闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦[My dream was to study abroad together with my loved one]
在脑海里头
我多希望你
还在我左右

答应你我会好好过[I'll try my best to live well]
不让这些眼泪白流[Though I might cry every night missing you]

I Hope Everything is Just a Dream

2010-07-02T17:13:00.002-05:00

Have you ever wanted to wake up from a dream and every bad dreams and nightmares you have will just remain as dreams?

YES! I have always wanted it to happen. But...it never does.

For those who have read my previous posts, sorry guys, wrong info. I have some corrections to make here.

Corrections:

I am not going to stay 5 miles away from campus, instead, I think I will be staying less than 1 mile from campus. Do you think it's a good news? Yea, maybe you think so, but I am not sure about it.

Wondering why? Good! I am about to tell you. Remember the awesome, fantastic and great service Brookside Townhomes I mentioned and even put its link in my previous post? Yea, it gave my only room to others. The three girls who have signed the lease have found a friend to move in with them. Guess it's my fault for hearing wrong info. Thro the phone for the first time I asked "does it mean that I have to sign the lease, pay the rent and move in on the same day?" The other side of the phone, "yes, you can do that." So, stupid me, having no idea of what is security deposit, thought that I have to send them my scanned I-20 and the roommate matching questionnaire then everything is done. Overwhelmed by the room I thought I have reserved, I was very exciting and happy that day. And now? Brookside said I haven't paid the deposit so it's fine for them to give the room I wanted to the person which is found by the three girls. And that was the only room available!

What a great way to make me stay awake whole night crying and searching for housing online, hopefully can find a room to stay. Throughout the searching, I found a place called Providence Court & Providence Hills. They have some rooms left and they only offer 1 bedroom/1bathroom and 2bedroom/2bathroom. They expect people who want to rent to have found their own roommate or friend to rent together. 1bedroom/1bathroom is definitely too expensive, around $600-$700 though all the utilities are included. While the latter one, it's affortable since it's around $800 for two persons but the thing is I can't find anyone to stay with me because I am going to Missouri all alone. What a way to start my life in US.

However, in the end, I was too worried about not getting roommate and all the other rooms would be filled up. Hence, I decided to find University Place Apartment. Yes, it's really near to campus. But most people who have lived there give bad reviews and feedbacks. I have found out about it like long long time ago. That's why I kept finding other housings and calling them to ask for any available and affordable room. I was even glad to have found this room which is 5 miles (7.7 km) away from campus and it costs me $506 every month. (Exceeding the budget that JPA gives me by $6.)
http://www.uplace.com/lease_rate.htm

Lucky enough, there are still rooms available for 2bedrooms apartment and I can just rent for one room. I don't have to rent the whole apartment all by myself and find a roommate myself. Too bad the 3bedrooms are full. Speaking of this, I forgot to ask him how many bathrooms are available in the 2bedrooms apartment. I was talking to him about something (I forgot what was it about) and the phone call just ended suddenly due to the fact that my phone is out of credit. Haha. Not going to call him back until Tuesday morning (US) because Monday is the holiday for Independence Day in US.

It's good that the rooms are available now but I'm still worried that it won't be available again. Getting this room (if I really get it in the end) is somehow lucky. More appropriate meaning in Chinese would be “不幸中之大幸”。My mom still requests for this and that for a room. To me, it's good enough to have somewhere near campus to stay even though it might be a crappy one.

During Form 2, I told myself, "I must thank whoever that hurts me." And now, I am telling myself, "I must thank and accept whatever unfortunate events which challenge me and make me cry". From what had happened, I also realized that it's not easy to live a simple and peaceful life which I have been dreaming about since little.

~ I do not dream to be rich, just have enough money to stay healthy and prevent starvation.

~ I do not dream to be famous, just want to be a commoner who has her own dignity and pride.

~ I do not dream to have perfect husband, just a man who truly loves me to protect me and never leaves me alone in sadness.

~ I do not dream of diamond ring or any expensive ring for my wedding, just have some wedding photos taken and wedding certificate signed are good enough for me.

I just want a simple and normal family, a peaceful one. Simple wedding which has no wedding dinner, just signing the certificate and if financially allowed, then honeymoon. I only want things to be simple and easy.

p/s: sorry for losing myself. |sorry for troubling you. |sorry for being weak. |sorry for being childish. |sorry for hurting you. |sorry for not choosing the right path and making the right choice. |sorry for staying away from you for so long. |sorry for not being the person that you once known.
I am sorry. I am running out of courage. I cannot stand straight as you want me to be. I need you. Please grant me courage to face all the things ahead my path. Please stay in my heart like you were all along when I was little. Whenever I am scared, you are always by my side to give me courage and give me strength, to face all the evils around me and inside me. I wish to be your small little angel I once was. Please give me a second chance to find back the lost me. I know it is all my fault. I know it is my punishment. I dare not ask for forgiveness. I am thankful that you have found me again. I am thankful that you have not abandoned me. Thank you.

$ in $ out

2010-07-01T11:21:00.000-05:00

After banking in the cheque into the bank, I went to Sri Gawa to stock up my stationery to US. Took this and that, ended up paying RM 25.10 for mechanical pencil, pencil leads (Buncho), 2 liquid correction pen (Pentel), 2 glue stick, and 3 highlight pens. Still, that wasn't enough. RM 20 were spent in Popular in Central Square. =.="
Now I am indeed poor.

Peng and I walked around in Central Square where he was finding external dvd rom and me, was looking at clothes and stationery. =P In the end, bought a piece of vest, just RM 10 and it fits me! ^.^ (hard to find clothes which fits me.

The vest will be worn inside of a T-shirt.

I like the shoulder part.

Settled my VISA application. Submitted the form and scheduled my interview - 0920, 14th August 2010. Will be going with Wendy and others. Oh ya! Thanks to Wendy in helping me to find the "schedule for an interview". I couldn't find it. Was too blind to notice it. *paisei*

Spent don't know how long to redecorate part of my Restaurant City (a Playfish game on FB).

And, no good news. Brookside Townhomes hasn't replied my email. -.-'' But I am lazy to call now. Feel sleepy. Wonder if the office is open on Friday morning (US time). Hopefully it does, so that I can call them tomorrow night. Gotta prepare to sleep.
~~Night Night~~

VISA Photo is Taken Today

2010-07-01T02:53:00.003-05:00

As what the title stated, I went to have my VISA photo shoot today. Before that, Sik Hoe told me that his VISA photo test was rejected. =.=" I'm really scared mine end up the same too. Then I have to go for another one. The cost is very expensive. Mine is RM 13.00 for 4 tiny pieces of VISA photo.

Went to "Ten to Ten" near my house. Again, my photo was taken by a friend of mine who is working in that shop. He took 5-7 times for me due to the lighting which he was not satisfied with. So, my eyes were flashed with the white light for many times. Guess this is one of the reasons most people don't have good and natural expression for their passport, license, IC photos. Haha! Besides, it was very hot wearing the coat in that room, though he lowered the temperature of the air-conditional after awhile. ^.^

Yeah! I'm going out later with Ah Peng again since he's on his way back to sp and expected to reach after 4 p.m. What to do later? Play arcade games? Play left for dead 2 in CC? Go Sri Gawa to buy some stationery?

Oh Yeah! Just received a call from mom while writing this post. My salary for the 10-days work has reached. Gonna take the cheque from my mom's friend later. ^.^ Yeah Yeah Yeah~ Yippee Yippee Ha Ha! Hopefull I can go SG first before briefing! I don't want to be "grounded" in Malaysia. =(

So many things to do later. Have to pick up my photos around 5-6pm later too. Feel nice to have all the things done in one go. ^.^ Have to settle housings and visa tonight! The office of Brookside Townhomes has not yet replied my email. =.=" TWO DAYS already! Gonna call them again tonight. Don't wanna wait for email even if they said they will reply me. Just ask them on the spot and settle it. Really wasting my time and money.

Oh yeah oh yeah~ Most important thing would be my salary... Hehehe! ^.^ *start shaking and dancing*

Mizzou's SHC and Trulaske

2010-06-30T13:37:00.000-05:00

Though I have called Brookside and wanted to ask them questions but the female manager seemed to be busy. I think I heard her saying that she was busy signing a lease agreement. She promised to reply my email in seconds... Yea yea yea... I don't think she will before I sleep because I have waited for an hour already.

While waiting for Brookeside Townhomes to reply my email, I checked out the Student Health Center of Mizzou. To my surprise, it is very informative and helpful! I really can't believe that the center has free yoga classes called the Yoga for Stress Management. (It's not really free because it's sponsored by our own paid student health fee.) I think they will only teach some simple yoga postures. Besides, they provide lessons on meditation called the iRest (Integrative Restoration, Yoga Nidra) which costs $40.00. It is stated that it helps to improve sleeps, reduce depression, anxiety and fear, improve interpersonal relations and increase sense of control in life. The class is 2 hours per week for the total of 8 weeks. These two are under stress reduction program. There are meal planning tips and sexual health advocate peer education provided by the center too.
http://studenthealth.missouri.edu/HP/stressresources.html

Mizzou also has Woman's Center. I guess other unis will also have that. But I really like the service provided by Mizzou. All these centers and information make me feel that Mizzou do care about the students. But for now, I have no idea of how those centers work, whether it's active and really helpful or not. Guess I shall just wait and see into it when I am there for my first semester.

Other than that, I also look through the upper level admission for Trulaske College of Business. To my concern, I found that upper level admission is only available in Feb and Sept. I definitely wish to get in and choose my major in Feb but I do not know whether I am able to do so. The eligibility is completion minimum of 45 semester credit hours and the admission is based on CGPA (Mainly is CGPA.) and availability of seat for the major chosen. However, the deadline is due in September for Feb admission. So, I have no idea whether I can apply or not because I thought I have to apply using my first semester result in Mizzou. I think I have to see my advisor. Trulaske has special extension for some students, such as good students who transferred into Trulaske and needs more time to complete requirements (I think I am in this category.) and so on, but extensions are for a semester only. On the other hand, it's scary to know that if the student has completed 60 or more semester hours but still couldn't get admitted to the Upper Level, then the student will be transferred out of business school!!! [怕怕]
http://business.missouri.edu/1839/Default.aspx

Hungry...but it's too late to take food. =( Gonna sleep. Still have to take VISA photo later. (Definitely look ugly. sad.)

No Turning Back

2010-06-26T05:38:00.006-05:00

There's no turning back now. If there's a way to turn back time, I would change my decisions. It's impossible to say that I have never regretted. If I did, then I would be a big liar.

There's only one thing I would want to change, which is unis that I applied.

First time knowing University of Wisconsin - Madison, I thought of applying. I think it's a pretty good school. Reasons I gave up?

1. Too many people are applying.

2. I thought it was hard to get admitted and I thought I must be admitted by Madison.

3. Priority date was 15th Dec 2009. I thought I must submit before that day.

4. We were too late to be officially together, hence, we don't have much time to decide which uni we want to go together because we have our own plans before we are together.

What now?

Going to University of Missouri-Columbia alone.

I was admitted by this uni in the end of Feb and received my I-20 in March, I think. This is the reason why I gave up applying to Ohio State University (OSU) in the last minute. My thought: no point applying to another extra uni when you have secured one. Don't waste the money.

Ended up being alone in Mizzou and four of my friends are going to OSU together.

It's fine. What's more? My first choice uni, University of Washington, gave me reply in late of June! So, while waiting for it, I can't do a thing for Mizzou! In the end, what I got was "Thank you for having interest in UW". How sad that was! Due to this factor, I am not able to get the housing I want. Spending all night to find for other housings, and the result? Most of the places are full! All my courage ran out last night. Tears flowing helplessly.

In the end, I found a place called Brookside Townhomes. Called them. Lucky to know that there are three rooms left for the plan I want which is the Four Rooms: Walkout. The place looks nice. (From photos on website) It's expensive. The basic is already $424.75 though the website states $387.75. With furnish (I don't know whether it's fully furnished or semi-furnished), they add-on $31.25, making the rent to be $456.00 per month. I dare not sign up for the utilities package because $474.75 per bedroom. ($50.00 per month) I don't have sufficient money to pay for the total rent all together every month if I sign up for utilities. So, have to save on electricity. Besides, the houses are 5.1 miles away from my uni! Though there are free buses every 30 minutes to fetch the residents, but I think I still have to prepare early because the journey might take 15-20 mins, not including the walking I have to do after reaching campus. Breakfast will be prepared every morning. It's a good service but I do not know whether it is healthy and tasty or not. The manager even said that I will only sign my lease agreement on the day I arrive US. So, I have to pay on the spot, sign on the spot and move in on the spot since she said I can move in anytime in August. However, the lease ends on 15th July every year. I don't know where am I going to live from that date until 14th August. Gonna try looking for some temporary room when I am there in the states. Hmm...what else? Oh! Roommate matching service is provided. Hopefully I end up living with pretty good roommates. Weight room, pool, internet are included in the rent too, together with hushwall! I like this criteria. I can have the room all to myself without worrying about disturbing others, especially when I webcam with my bf. Unlike other living places, Brookside Townhomes has no computer labs which provide free printing. Guess I'll have to find a solution for it.

Link to the Brookside Townhomes to see photos and floorplans: http://www.brooksidetownhomes.com/units/four_four_wo

Next would be my visa. All the SEVIS fee, visa application fee and service fee are paid. Now just left with...oh ya! I forgot about visa photo! Gonna find one day to take it. Totally forgot about it. So, I just left with the form, visa photo and interview. Lot of things to be done actually. I've not even start buying winter clothes, luggage bags and etc... Can't believe that the day to fly to US is so near. Start to feel a bit scared. ~.~ NO MORE HOLIDAYS... wu~wu~wu~ =(

Yeah! First Outing after Working and in June

2010-06-04T11:12:00.003-05:00

Guess where I went.

This time I didn't go far.

Still in SP. Maybe 20 minutes away from home?

Starts with 'V'!

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------> VILLAGE MALL!

Ever since Village Mall having cinema and leisure mall, I have not been there. I didn't even know that there's a big leisure mall where I can play the jungle arcade (forgot its real name), time crisis 4, time crisis 2, house of dead 4, etc... these are a few of my fav, particularly time crisis 4 = BEST! Oh ya, for those who plays time crisis, please do not play time crisis 3. It's no fun, maybe because it's too hard. So, do not waste your time and money in it. Better go for Time Crisis 4! I sound like fans of it. XD Maybe I am. ^^

My outing started at 5pm, right after I have bathed. Then, upon arriving, I was lucky to see two beauties. One was my ex-schoolmate and another one was her friend, which I don't know her, but she's quite pretty too. Then we chitchatted awhile on the way going to the cinema to buy tickets. (They were going to the cinema too and they didn't know where it is.) So, ah peng and I bought the tickets, RM 11.00 each, 7.30pm. Deng deng deng~ PRINCE OF PERSIA! It's not a bad movie after all. To me, it's surprising since I thought it's going to be just an ordinary movie but it managed to amaze me. Well, it's a movie to watch if you have no idea what and which movie should choose now. =D Too bad that the movie "When in Rome" is only available at mid-night! I wanted to watch it when I saw the trailer while helping ah peng to check the showtime of all the movies in Village Mall. Never mind, shall ask someone to dl the movie for me one day, if I could remember. Hehe... However, I'm looking forward to the "Karate Kid"!!! I think it would be a great movie. Hopefully it won't disappoint me. =)

After buying tickets, I couldn't hold my hunger any longer. Thus, we chose Pizza Hut (actually, should be just him who chose it as I do not hope to eat food which I can eat most of the time in US!) Each of us ordered single set of pizza, which was RM 8.50 per set, with a mushroom soup, glass of pepsi, plate of bread stick and small pizza. He ordered triple chicken and... I forgot what I ordered. Triple chicken taste better.

We spent one hour in having the meal! When we were in front of the leisure mall, it's about 7.00 pm. So, we played Time Crisis 4 for half an hour but I didn't manage to finish it. (My skill sucks) Ah peng finished the game in 30 mins and using only one credit. He is so pro in Time Crisis. About 7.35 pm, we rushed into the cinema. We missed new trailers =( but it's fun to see him play arcade.

Done with the movie, it was just 9.40 pm. So, we played the jungle arcade. The game was exciting and thrilling! We felt tired, exhausted and nervous. We kept gasping for air. Haha! 喘啊！For the first time, I used lesser token than him! Wahahaha! He used 3 credits and I only used 2 to get to the same point. However, we didn't finish the game as it's time to go home. His friends were rushing him to go CC too. Thus, we leaved Village Mall around 10 pm. On the way back, went to McDonald to have a sundae cone to soothe our dry throat. Too bad, we were told by the staff that the sundae was a bit liquefying. So, we didn't buy it in the end.

Finally, I reached home at 10.20 pm. Satisfied with the 5 hours outing but to be honest, not fully satisfied due to the incomplete of Time Crisis 4. (Hope ah peng won't read this.) XD

He said he might call me out to have tea time (LAKSA!!!) tomorrow. :D See whether this event is really on tomorrow.

Goodnight! It's time to O~ O~ lo!!!

What I Have Done in May

2010-05-31T13:10:00.005-05:00

I have no idea what to say. Maybe it's because I have too much to say but I don't know how to say them. Recently, someone had complained to me about my blog. He said, "you have not updated your blog for centuries!" Ya ya, I know. I have things to say but too bad I have no photos to show together, plus, I was too lazy.

Let's start with what I have done during this holiday.

Mine is pretty much normal, or I should say, BORING. Unlike others, I don't get to go to trips with friends, touring nor travelling. Right after packing all my things and got back home, I indulged myself in playing FB and games. Through FB, I found out lots of my friends had done their medical check-up and passport. Thus, it motivated me to do the same. So, I was busy for 2 weeks with those things. (Because I have to go to hospital for 3 times and 7th of June would be the 4th time. =.=") Unlike someone I know, he doesn't have to wait or go to the hospital for so many times. He just went there for a few hours then he is done with the check-up and all the tests. Even TB test's result (Mantoux test) can be written at home! Plus, he doesn't have to pay a cent!

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TRIP

Ok, I did go to a trip, but with my mom and her friends, me being the only kid! My mom and I went to Hatyai. We woke up as early as 4.45 am and took off at 5.30 am. Reach Hatyai around eight something. We went to temple and waited for hours to see the sifu. Don't look down on these things. I started to believe in what the sifu said. Do you know that he knows what major I am taking without people telling him?! I only filled my name and my birthday. That's all. They have a book which can calculate some numbers out, and those numbers symbolizes certain things like number of kids (even number of boys and girls, he knows!), years of working in certain company, years of marriage etc... People would think it's normal that he knows how many years I studied but among of all the people there, only my mom and I know what my major is. Somehow, I believe him. Right after visiting the temple, we went to have our lunch since it was 1 pm already. We had our lunch in a Thai restaurant. The food was delicious and awesome. We had crab meat, seafood tomyam ( I prefer M'sia tomyam more), salad, pork, fried vege (I don't know the name of the vege, but it was one of the best dishes) etc, only RM 22 per person. Oh ya, the rice given was blue in color. First time in my life, I saw blue rice and it's tasty, not oily or sticky.

After having meal, it's SHOPPING TIME! We went to a market. There's lot of bags, food, shoes. My mom and I didn't buy a lot. We bought two pairs of shoes for my dad, one high heels and a handbag for me.( will upload the picture of the shoes and handbag if possible.) Then my mom bought some sort of oil for massage and some doi doi, the green, light brown and dark brown triangle kuih. We had coconut and sugar cane drinks at the end of the shopping trip.

Here is the bag. Taken on 6th June 2010. In Ah Peng's car.

Don't ever think that women will never get tired by shopping. Hence, we went to have body massage. My mom and her friends went for it but I was just sleeping there, beside my mom while she was having her relaxing massage which cost her RM 50. It was comfortable to be sleeping there in air-conditioned room for I think one hour or two. Maybe I was too tired.

Right after that, we started our journey back. Luckily, we didn't have our dinner there because if not, we would have come back later than mid-night. The border toll was jammed, with lorries and trucks. We were stuck there for quite a long time.

That's the Hatyai trip with mom.

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After that one day trip, my life was back to be normal and boring again. Done my passport and renewed driving licence. Played FB games and mahjong. However, this time with new activity, which is online shopping! Created an E-bank account and I started buying stuff. I bought clothes, masks, and cosmetics. Those products are from Korea or Taiwan, which I plan to bring to the states. Shopping online is so much easier but the bad thing is you have to pay the postage fee, which is usually RM 6 and transaction service fee, RM 2. Thus, you can imagine that I have spent lots of my time facing my lappy everyday, looking at clothes and cosmetic products. Besides, I was busy reading. Nah~ I won't be so hardworking reading textbook. I was busy with novels. XD Read a few novels, even read back one novel I have read before.

Starting the 21st of May until 30th May, I wasn't wasting my time too much on FB and games, not even at all for online shopping. For the reason of I AM WORKING! From 1 pm until 10 at night, no doubt I was exhausted. I slept less than 8 hours per day because I webcam with my boyfriend and use those free time to play games and read novels. For those who have read novel before, you should know that you can't just quit the novel once you have started reading one chapter.

Finally, I was so relieved to finish that 10 days of work. I thought I could sleep all day long the next day. Guess what. My parents were "discussing" over a matter at 8 am in the morning downstairs. FYI, my dad speaks quite loud and even louder when he is discussing (somehow, to me, he sounds more like arguing than discussing all the time). For those who know me well, I am a light sleeper. That's how I was awaken from my precious sleep! I slept at around 3.30 am and I became a superhero for waking up at 8.10 am! Don't forget about me having sleep deprivation for 10 days!

And now, I am here, updating my blog. Again, I am going to sleep at 3.30 am. =.=||

Times Square Trip on Public Holiday

2010-02-26T23:59:00.008-06:00

难得有假期，而且刚好完成我小考，所以，肯定是shopping time!
自然的，绪轩被我拉去Times Square咯！哈哈！
十点半，开始旅程！

Items Bought:

长皮夹 (RM 40)

(Front)

(Back, but don't know why this photo is not horizontal one.)

Inside the purse. I love the part where I can keep my coins.

There's a place for me to keep my sim card and memory card as well. =)

Here is the small bag for me to keep the purse. Nice, right?

Next would be Couple Watch!
I've been finding this watch for a long time since the first time I saw it in Times Square.
Then, I failed to find it when I went to Times Square again to meet with Yi Wen which was during Thaipusam.
Luckily, I found it yesterday. =P hehe! His watch is black color. Mine is silver white.

Because of the light reflection and maybe handphone camera resolution, I couldn't take a clear photo of it. But I think the pattern of it is quite clear. It's like a flower, opened up with its petals written with 12, 3, 6 and 9.

Here is another photo of it.

Jacket! (RM 30)

I lost my white jacket when I came back from JB end of last year. So, he promised me to buy me a jacket. I found my favorite jacket in one of my favorite shops in TS.

Followed by a small jacket which I wanted to match with my dress. (RM 25)

Have been finding this kind of small jacket for some time already. At last I found one that suits me, plus it's not expensive like one jacket that I saw in my hometown during CNY. 45 bucks!

Handbag (RM 25)

Since my old one is already tear and wear, so I have to buy a new one. As usual, my handbag isn't expensive or branded. This one is a very simple and plain handbag. Its function is to carry books to class. Heehee. =)

I plan to buy a backpack in the near future. I saw one in TS yesterday. It was dark red and white. Cost: 53 bucks. But somehow, I think it's too big for me but he said it's good to bring it to US. =.=" I will consider about it first. =P

KFC as lunch while Subway as dinner. If possible, I plan to go to Jusco to have sushi in sushi king since my roomie said the service there is not bad. =)
This trip might be common to others but to me, it's awesome! Maybe because it's the first time we really shop together in TS. But he's very tired after that. Went to bed right after his dinner. Feel sorry about that. hehe.

下一站，幸福 [片头曲]

2010-02-08T10:43:00.003-06:00

下一站，幸福 [片头曲]

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

First Christmas with Kam

2009-12-25T09:31:00.005-06:00

This year Christmas is a bit different from the past as I wasn't in my own home but, in other's.
His family doesn't celebrate Christmas. Christmas to them is just like any other days, same as my family too. So, what have I done during Christmas?
On 24th, Kam and I were rushing to bus Terminal 2 for our bus, scheduled at 8:30 pm. However, because of the delay of KTM, we have failed to catch the bus even with taxi. So, there goes my 20 bucks for the taxi. In the end, thanks to the bus driver for 9:30 pm, which is another bus to Larkin, we got the ticket by paying extra 20 bucks per person. Felt so sorry for the bus driver because the ticket seller of the bus company didn't want to let us do that. Instead, she wants us to buy a new ticket, which is 50 bucks. (I don't know whether it's for 2 persons or per person.) I was so mad at that time that I wanted to curse the lady. (I know~ I was a bit evil.) However, we managed to arrive Larkin bus station safely. And, thanks to the bus driver. God will always bless you, uncle.
Arrived at Kam's house at 1 am sth. Felt so sorry for causing his parents to sleep late. Paisei~
25th => everything is just like any other days. The difference is the children that are around, a 2-year-old boy and a 1-year-old boy. Both are Kam's big brother's kids.
One special event happened in the night. Electricity was cut off, maybe for maintenance. At the same time, Kam and I were too hungry that we were forced to cook in dark. Actually, he's the one that did the cooking while I was waiting for my supper. Hehehehe!

-Left one was his, right one was mine-
With a candle at the center, this was our romantic supper.

-Kam took a photo of me after he finished his supper.-
What a stalker.

Overall, it was a common but peaceful Christmas where there were no crowds screaming and shouting.

p/s: thx dear, for preparing supper and washing dishes. =)

Went to TS again

2009-12-23T11:08:00.004-06:00

Every end of the year, there are discounts! YES! (year-end-sale)

This year, same as last year, went to Times Square to shop.
Have to admit, it's kinda boring at the beginning cos I couldn't shop a thing!Experience this for the first time - nothing caught my attention.
But, in the end, I manage to find two pairs of shoes! Hope that they can match with my dresses and CNY clothes.

Shopaholic (a shop in TS) is a good store to buy shoes. Cheap (There are RM 15, 20, 40... shoes to choose from), pretty (at least I can find shoes that fit me), good service (other store's promoters seem to be rude sometimes, spoil my mood nia). Since one pair is 39.90 and if I buy two, they will be RM 60. So, ended up buying two then. One is high heels (Jeans), another is just normal flat cover shoes.

When I first entered the store, the high heels was the one that I noticed first becos it looks so tiny! I thought my feet wouldn't be able to fit in but I could, without any pain, just a bit tight, that's all, and Kam said it fits me quite well. So, considered quite some time as it's made of jeans which might be hard for me to match with my clothes o dresses. However, in the end, I bought it! yeah! Because of the promotion, I bought another pair which is a type of shoes that I don't have. (I have too little shoes d, that's why.)

-As you can see, photos taken on INTI's bed-
(sorry to the owner of the bed)

I plan to match my shoes with black stoking. Then, match together with either short pants or dresses. Hmmm... I'm scared I will look lala. :( Gah~ shall try in Kam's house and ask for his comments d.

I did buy a dress but I think I don't look nice in it even though it fits me. It costs me 25 bucks. Maybe I will upload the photo of it next time. Ohya, Kam and I watched bodyguards and assassins just now. It was just ok. In fact, it's a bit boring. Without any reason, I have the feeling that Avatar won't be nice too, just normal.

What a "Nice" Day to Start With

2009-12-08T20:41:00.005-06:00

awaken by the alarm I set.
10 mins after that, calling from mom downstairs, asking me about the printing stuff that my aunt asked me to do last night.
OMG! This time I'm really screwed!
I forgot to print the document that she sent me!!!
For anyone, such as my bro and sista, who know my aunt, they know what would happen next if we didn't do the thing we have promised her.
Damn!
Quickly pulled myself out of the bed and switched on my laptop.
Heard my aunt's voice downstairs. Oh God!!! (even God can't help me right now.)
After she found out about it, she left, followed by my mom's and dad's calling.
"Ok~Ok~ I know!" *waiting for my laptop to be ready*
Went into hotmail website. Open my inbox. Click here and there.
Ok, finally downloaded the file and save it in my pendrive in semi-conscious state.
Went downstairs and printed the doc out. *hustling*
DONE!
If anyone thinks that this event has ended, you are 100% wrong!
The coming part was the worst.
Called my aunt, she answered with a nice tone.
And, just 1 second after she knew it was me, I was bloodily scolded on the phone.
"you are just like your brother! only know how to promise but never do it! how are u going to work in the future? If your boss ordered you to print the meeting documents which he's going to use the next morning and you forgot, what will happen? If the documents are urgently in need, what are you going to do? If you can't do it, you should have told me earlier! I can ask your dad to print it out for me! Is that hard to just print a piece of document?!"
Every word in total harshness.
Listened to every word she said, held the phone in my hand, standing, keeping quiet.
"I suddenly forgot."
One sentence attracted a whole scolding session again.
Finally...
"Printed?"
"Yes."
"Bring it to me."
"Ok. I'll bring it to you now."
Calmed myself down. After changing, tried to hold the tears in me.
"Pa, drive me to grandma's house."
Suddenly, tears burst out me. (skip the long story of calming down myself after that.)
Arrived there. Handed the paper to her.
And, again, being scolded again. This time wasn't that fierce like just now. *standing right beside her, looking at her, listening to whatever she said.*
"I won't forget next time."
"It's better for family members to scold you than outsiders."
I squeezed a smile out for her which I think it looks quite natural.
Then, I leaved with my dad. Walking out of the house, I held the tears inside my eyes. ( scolding myself in my heart, "why do I always have to cry! damn! I hate myself being weak!")

-End of Story-

So, I guess this is a good day, huh?

Digression:
Going out with my dad later in the afternoon to buy bus ticket and shop for rice.
Hmm...when will I get the chance to buy digi campus?
If I told my dad, would he allow me to buy?
If he asked the reason of buying it, how should I tell him?
Gah~

What Is Today's Lunch?

2009-11-23T00:02:00.005-06:00

Again, mom didn't cook today. This is what happen when she has morning shift. My dad usually da-bao food outside. Sometimes I also "tumpang". Today is a bit different since I'm going to cook my own meal.

What is the menu for noon?
Spaghetti!!!

Sliced mushrooms and some small prawns are added into my spaghetti. (Can't just have the noodles only, right?)
Sauce? Don't expect me to prepare the sauce. Hahaha! I'm a lousy chef. (Bought from hypermarket la!) XD
Cook the noodles... bla bla bla bla bla......

And, in the end?
Ta-da!

[ MY LUNCH ]

After having the main course, since I was in the good mood, took two red apples and cut them into pieces. This process is much easier than preparing spaghetti.

After working on these two recent posts, I realize that I really need a camera!!! Or a handphone which can snap picture would be very helpful, as I don't wanna use my laptop integrated webcam to take picture anymore! It's suffering...

CNY Clothes!!!

2009-11-22T09:18:00.007-06:00

What I would do end of every year - buying new clothes for CNY!!!
Best part of my holiday.
This year, I've bought most of them in a very short period.
4 shirts and a cap in 2 hours.
A short pants and a dress the next morning.
A dress that has been bought before Ah Ching left.
( shopped with her in Times Square )

Ok, enough for the intro. Here are my CNY clothes.
[The Short Pants - RM 36]

(front)

(back)

[White Long Sleeve Shirt]
Kinda plain. Lack of accessories.

[Free Size Blue Long Sleeve Shirt]
That's why it's a bit loose for me, yet comfortable.
Looks relaxing, right?

[Green Stripe Shirt with a Cap Behind]
This shirt is quite long for me, and it's size M!
Again, it's a bit loose.

[Jean Dress Bought in Times Square with Ching - RM 50]
It can be worn in 3 ways. It has 4 stripes.
First: tie the two front stripes at the back.

(front)

(back)

Second: hide all stripes inside the dress.
But, I prefer to add a ribbon.

Third: tie all 4 strips at the side.

[Dress Bought in Morning Market]

Erm...Don't know what to say.

Here is a cap by Blue Toms and the last shirt, by Googles.

-Combining the two-

Yeng or not?

Whew~ Taken some time for me to take all these photos and upload them here.
This post is really a lot of work. Hahaha!
But, I'm satisfied with it. =)

Thank you and sorry

2009-11-01T09:06:00.003-06:00

I thought I have changed but now I know I never did.
Always be the one that hurts people.
So, stay away and don't ever be close to me.
I just want to be with me.
I just want to be alone.
Relying only to myself.
Being just a person that no one knows.
Sorry is the only thing I can say to them.
Apologize is the only thing I can do.
Staying away is what I should do.
Not to bother people.
Not to be with anyone.
Just, with myself.
I appreciate what you have told me.
I really do.
I appreciate what you have done for me.
I really do.
Thanks to all of you who have helped me.
I really do.
Thank you and sorry.

Weight Gained

2009-11-01T07:13:00.002-06:00

Seems like exercising can really help me to gain weight. 1st thing to do after reaching home - measure my weight! XD

Guess what? I gained weight! Even though it's not very heavy for others but to me, this weight is the heaviest that I get since I was born - 37 kg. Since Raya, when I found out that I lost 2kg, only 34kg. I was so sad. But now, unbelievable! I have gained 3 kg this time. Yeah! New record created!

Hoping to gain more. This discovery motivates me to continue with my gain-weight plan.
Decided:
-To exercise almost every day if possible, mainly jogging with my dad.
-To eat an egg per day, no matter it's breakfast or eat it with my cintan mee as supper.
-To have every meal, no skipping.
-To eat chocolate every day and drink a lot of water (so that I won't have fever or constipation).
-To wake up early and sleep early. (this is the least possible thing for me to do).

SMILE!!! Life is full with sufferings and happiness. You just have to deal with both of them equally. Try to maximize the happiness and reduce the pain. Find the balance yourself in your life. SMILE ALWAYS AND HAVE FUN!!! =D

Song Created In INTI

2009-10-24T00:13:00.004-05:00

"毫无关系的两个人
没有任何牵连
天天相遇但却从不谈话
这样子过了一年

缘份连上了他们
他们却不晓得
这奥妙感觉在他们心里面
慢慢地滋长

今年的十月真不一样
两个人的关系在进化
从没想过结局会变成怎样
因为只要曾经拥有就足够
珍惜对方的存在
你的陪伴你的体温你的笑容
让我爱上了你"

created on the 21st of Oct 2009 [18:54 pm]
in block K common room.

Hahaha! Exciting! But only a small part of a song only.
Maybe I should find someone to sing the song for me. (bcz my singing sucks) hahaha

Ok. Now here's the question, I have thought of a name for this song - "十月份的进化". Is it ok? Or any other suggestions?

After Stat Test 2

2009-10-17T01:44:00.007-05:00

Weekends is the best! But this weekends isn't that fun, having to prepare for my upcoming accounting test 2 and sta quiz on Monday.

Luckily, I manage to survive through this hectic week, by sleeping at 3am every night and waking up at 8-9am. Now, my body systems are all down. Feeling a bit old lately but I have found a cure for that.

Last night was a bit crazy. After having my stat test 2 (I think I screw up again), I played pool for almost 4 hours?? Haha! From 3.45-6.30, lepak in skillpool. Then after dinner, pool again until I reached my room at 10pm. Then, out to common room to study at 11pm, but the revision wasn't effective at all. No mood to study. ==" Kacau Kam when he's doing his calc2 assignment4 and we chatted. Sorry oh, Kam. Hahaha! Anyway, found out a good news - Kam scoring full in his calc2 Test 2. Damn! He is so smart. *envy* But this isn't all about intelligence, I know he worked very hard to get that result. A photo to prove:

See? How serious and hardworking this Kam Kam is? As always, I'm the one who kacau him only. Wahahahaha!

Oh, there's one important photo that I forgot to upload. The pool table miracle. Hehehe!

Created by me! This is real, no editing or anything. I hit the ball so that I can hit MJ's blue ball out. In the end, both balls stuck in front of the hole, half hanging. Damn Yeng.

By the way, I saw the good looking guy again yesterday. He was playing pool with his friend. This time, I watched him from close distance. To my surprise, he is very good in pool! Almost all balls enter when he hits, and he barely aims at all. Damn zhun.

Regarding my stat test 2, I want to thank all those who have wished me - Kam, my Peng Peng, Gaik Lyn especially and others. Having lunch with you (Gaik Lyn) was delightful. Hope to see you around in INTI, and makan together next time. =) Be happy always, girl.

A Poem???

2009-10-13T03:33:00.005-05:00

"You said that you are interesting,

but all I can think of is disgusting;

Even though both words end with I.N.G,

but their meaning are two different things."

-created yesterday evening when playing pool-
~ HAHAHA ~

Experiencing Short Semester

2009-10-12T01:26:00.003-05:00

Whew~ Didn't update my blog for awhile already. What are the things that keep me busy all the time? I guess there will be no other than my stat and accounting II. Let's see what are the things that I need to cope with in this week.

Mon: [today] hand-in accounting assignment. Luckily I have MJ and Hoo Siang to cover the assignment. After completing the cover page, table of content, bibliography and intro, I went to sleep at 5.30am. I feel guilty now cuz MJ and Hoo Siang didn't sleep all night just to finish the last question and check/edit the assignment. Later treat them dinner la. Anyway, the assignment is still incomplete as MJ just told me that they still need to edit the conclusion for a little bit more. I wanted to help out but, internet connection sucks, unable to transfer the file, eff~. So, asked MJ to sleep first, then wake up at 4pm, do the final touching on the assignment then done! (HOPE SO) Have to pass up the assignment before 6pm. Now it's time for me to sleep also. Have been sleeping around 3-5am every day. Tire~

Wed: Due date for SPSS Project. I guess that won't be a much problem since my group has nearly done all on last friday, only left the conclusion.

Thu: Due date for STAT assignment 4. This one is going to take about an hour or more to finish. After that, still need to compare answer and discuss with friends. I think I'll settle it tonight, if possible.

Fri: This is the worst among all - STAT test 2. I screwed up my last test; it's REALLY TERRIBLE. Possibility to get an A is very low, unless I can score perfectly in test 2 and finals. If not, ~.~"
4 credit hours man! I don't want the same thing that happened in calc 1 to be repeated. NO!!!

The following Mon: Acc test 2. I barely know about those chapters that are going be tested. So, 2 days for 3 chps??? =.=" Sweat... Test 2 is going to be difficult this time as the format will be the same as finals.

Argh...My body and mind are complaining. Time to sleep now. Started to feel headache. I think I won't be able to jog today. Sleep now, and then, 3.50pm wake up. Ok! Tidur now. -.-zzzzz

Dinner then Play Pool Again

2009-10-03T09:21:00.002-05:00

Today I was a total pig for sleeping the whole day. Slept at 4am then woke up at 1.30pm. Had my lunch (instant cup noodles+egg). Went online for awhile and played poker on FB. Slept again at 4pm until 7pm. Then, called every possible friend to find one to have dinner with. Finally, I found Hao Xiang and MJ. After having 1 fish and 1 chicken special burger, we went to Trick Shot to play pool. MJ said "ONLY AWHILE". Ya right! When it's playing pool, we never play "ONLY AWHILE". XD

First time playing outside of INTI, at Trick Shot. The facilities there are nice, better than that in INTI, especially the balls and table. Balls are very shinny and smooth, so I don't have to use much strength to hit them into hole. Hao Xiang said he can't stand the way I hit the balls as it seems like I just simply hit the balls but they all enter. Hahaha! It's not true though! Since I really did aim first before I hit. Please la~

Never thought of uploading this resit, but I did, as Hao Xiang suggested, so that I can prove that I did go there and beat both MJ and him. I am so excited today to have won. However, I think it's all about luck and the right feeling when you play pool. So, MJ is still cool in it! He is really good in it. This is undeniable. He can just clean the table, leaving only 1 ball left when it's your turn to make your FIRST move in that game (which means you still have 7 balls left).

As shown above, we played from 8.44pm till 10.21pm. It is quite expensive to play there as one hour = 13 bucks!!! (I have calculated.) I guess we would still prefer to play in INTI as 1 hour = 9 bucks only.

p/s: Kam, get the 9 bucks that I owe you in pool from Hao Xiang, as he owes me 9 bucks.

Friday Night

2009-10-02T10:21:00.004-05:00

Now, I feel as if I were in my first semester in INTI. Friday night was always the "best" night.

Yoke Ching, I think you know what I always do on Friday night, right? I miss you now. I really miss you now. You are the only one that I miss so much, despite of my family. I need you now. I really need you. I tried very hard to hold myself. I managed to win but for only 10 minutes. And now, I totally fail to control it. I have trained myself so hard to live without you. I have trained myself to be tough for all the time. Why am I so weak still? I smile, I control, I hold it back, trying the best I could. Why can't I live just like any others? Yoke Ching, tell me! Why!!! I tried so hard to hide all of it. But, that is impossible for me to cover every hole that exists. There must be a way out to balance it. So, here I am. With no way to go, I come to my blog to make it a way out for it. No one understands except you, my dear. Why didn't you online? I really need you right now. But, I never blame you. I understand that you have your own life to take care of, your new environment in UWash. I hope everything goes the way you want it. I hope your dreams will come true. I don't want to be your burden. I want to be your bff. I dare not ask too much from you even if you don't mind. I really miss you, ah Ching. I really do. You are the best thing that ever happens to me. I wanna hug you now, even if you hit me and push me away. Just for 5 minutes. That is all I ask for. Not much.

Tomorrow is going to be the Mooncake Festival. Remember our first ever Mooncake Festival? Joanne brought us jelly mooncake. That was the first time I saw jelly mooncake and the first time we celebrated it together. I miss the time when we still have each other, even the time we argue and fight with each other.
Friday night is torturing......

p/s: This is not a love letter. It's a post that I write for Yoke Ching and myself.

Pool & Badminton! Awesome!

2009-09-30T08:54:00.004-05:00

Today is one delightful day! Slept for only 4hours, but was energetic enough to play pool and badminton.

Yeah! I get to play badminton, using my own racket in INTI. I think it's the third time I play in MPH, using my own badminton racket. This time, I played with Janice and her friend, Johan, who was my classmate too in last semester. I met some cool and super nice people, such as Chloe(econ classmate), Wilson, Eik Sheng(sorry, don't really know how to spell the name) and another two more guys (they didn't tell me their names, so...paisei la). Oh, I remember one, his name sounds like "kung-fu", my accounting classmate this sem. The other one was also my psycho classmate. So, eight of us, played badminton for two hours and had our dinner at 9pm. This is how college life should be.

Oh, forgot to mention about pool. I didn't plan to play today as I just played yesterday with Meng Hon. But since Meng Hon called me to play, so I played with him for a few games. I played with Xin Zhi for most of the time. Spent 8 bucks in pool and 14 bucks in dinner, I'm poor now. Really poor... :[
Can someone sponsor me? Tak ada money d. Kesiannya.

Now resting. I sweat a lot. Whole body is wet! I think I can even squeeze water out of my clothes. But I didn't feel tire when they said they want to leave for dinner. I am Sooo... into badminton! No doubt it's my favorite hobby. Today is really a very wonderful day. (If I don't have to do accounting and prepare for mid-term exams.) :(

Second Lunch + Pool Games

2009-09-29T01:40:00.005-05:00

Exercise does help in my appetite. Just jogged yesterday and I can see the effect today. As usual, I have my lunch at 12pm. Then class starts from 12-2pm. But today, I had a SECOND lunch at 2pm! So hard to believe it. After having my spaghetti in bakery, I was still hungry actually. I thought of having another cheese cake in bakery but I didn't as my lunch for today already cost me 9.5MYR - vegetarian rice, honeydew, spaghetti.

I saw one good looking guy in bakery while I was waiting for my meal. I never thought that such guy would appear in INTI. Hmm...he is not really handsome. He looks very healthy, that kind of guy that exercises a lot. His skin is a bit dark, healthy skin that a sporty man should have. He has broad shoulders and with a height of 175cm and above. (Not so sure as I was sitting when he's walking out of bakery.) He wears spec which makes him look like ABC. His spec is just black without any other colors. It's just simple and nice. He is the type of natural good looking guy with no disguise. Just a simple white round collar T with a black knee-length pants plus a black back pack make him looks so attractive.

After having my second lunch alone, when I passed by the pool center, guess what I saw?
Him again. How come I've never met him when I was playing pool? Maybe I weren't so aware of the surrounding when I was playing pool. XD

It's good to see good looking guys here in INTI, even if there's only one. But now I'm in anti-love-relationship mode. Haha! So, just let my eyes enjoy the "look" only. =D

Didn't play pool for two weeks already. Time to brush up pool skills with my sifu. Later I still need to jog with Marvin. =)
~~~~~

Just came back from dinner with Duxson and Dolphin (sorry if I spelled your name wrongly).
I ended up jogging alone just now as Marvin was busy with his studies and assignment, I guess. My stamina today isn't as good as yesterday. And my legs are painful, the kind of feeling that I had when I joined the Penang Bridge marathon. I don't know whether I can still jog with Marvin tomorrow. But at least I sweat and I feel healthy. Total up, I had spent 14MYR today for 2 lunch and 1 dinner, excluding my supper that I might have later. Haha! I hope that I can gain weight. Even one kg is very significant for me since I have lost 2 kg before Raya. :(

Oh, forgot to mention about the pool games. I played pool with Meng Hon around 3pm. He was too tired until he lost in the games. We played only 4 games but I was happy as he said I've improved. Yeah! Then I played another 3 games with Jonathan. I discovered that guys don't like to accept money from girls. Jonathan refused to accept my money for the games as he said that he won't accept it when he's the one who invited me to play. =.=" Same thing goes to MJ. Last time I worked so hard to stuff money into his bag just to pay for the pool games. And, I succeeded! Hehehe! But this is only applicable to some of the guys. There are guys that won't hesitate to claim money from girls too. Haha!

Is It Just A Dream?

2009-09-28T11:41:00.004-05:00

Today, I saw him online. It looks so real. But it also seems like a dream. I remember that I was just finished bathing, lying on the bed and thinking of him. Then, I checked on my tabs that were lagging. When I opened my msn, scrolling up and down to see if there's any updates, I saw him. The apple green which shows that he is online, has become so striking than usual. I sent messages but there's no reply. It looks so real but at the same time, maybe I was too tired, it looks like a dream. I was so excited but disappointed at the same time. Maybe he doesn't care about me anymore, but I do care about him. Anyway, I am still happy to know that he has recovered from illness. Even if that is just a dream, I'm still happy to be able to dream of him. =)
~~~
Exercise does make me feel healthy. It's good for the body system too as I really feel tired now. Wanted to sleep but, my heart is still hoping for something to happen. What an idiot I am. Hahaha!
~~~
It's all just a dream. A dream which I hope that it's just a dream. A dream which I hope that it will have a wonderful ending. A dream which I hope will be a reality that is not hurtful. It's just a dream afterall. Is it?
~~~
Yes. It's a dream that I shouldn't be dreaming anymore. I don't wanna be the same old me again. Thinking of someone too often isn't fun. He is always busy. He has his own plans. He has his own future, a bright one.
~~~
I need to have my own life, my own plans. I have to make myself busy. I must build my own future.
~~~
He told me that there's too few people that can overcome the reality. But, I don't think that is the cause now. People can overcome it, depending on how that person deals with the reality. Apparently, he chose the another way. He does work for what he wants. I believe that. It's just that there's always rankings for plans. =)

USED vs LOVED (email)

2009-09-28T11:08:00.001-05:00

While a man was polishing his new car,
his 4 yr old son picked up a stone
and scratched lines on the side of the car.

In anger, the man took the child's hand
and hit it many times not realizing
he was using a wrench.

At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers
due to multiple fractures.

When the child saw his father.....
with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?'
The man was so hurt and speechless;
he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times.

Devastated by his own actions......
sitting in front of that car he looked at the scratches;
the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.
The next day that man committed suicide. . .

Anger and Love have no limits;
choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely
life & remember this:
Things are to be used and people are to be loved.
The problem in today's world is
that people are used while things are loved.

Let's try always to keep this thought in mind:
Things are to be used,
People are to be loved.

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character;
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

I hope you have a good day no matter what problems you may face
it's the only day you'll have before it's over.

Jogging Today

2009-09-28T06:25:00.004-05:00

It has been awhile since the last time I jogged in INTI.
Now, it's time to start having the habit to jog every week, with the hope of becoming fatter.
My sis told me before that exercise is not just meant for those who want to keep fit, but also for those skinny people like me to gain weight. So, jogging is the most convenient way. I don't have to book court just for badminton, or to even pay for exercise.
So, today, I jogged with Marvin in INTI. We jogged for 20mins only but it was good enough for me already. I saw Jessica, Chloe, Fatin and her Malay friends there also, exercising. They are so lucky to have people to join them. Luckily, Marvin is willing to accompany me. Hehe!
Then, at 6pm, we went out to have dinner. 100 plus, yee mee are what we had for dinner.
(My purpose of having yee mee is because of the egg, of the protein. Hehe!)
Overall, today is better than the other days as I only on my RC this morning (10mins only). Then, I never go to FB anymore. Besides, it feels good to sweat! It would be better if I can play badminton at least 2 times a week. =(
Now it's time to bath since I'm done resting after my dinner. (Though it's unhealthy to bath after dinner.)

p/s: Thx for the dinner and the companion, Marvin. Thx for the invitation during lunch, Jan. =)

2009-09-26T06:39:00.002-05:00

Another non-beneficial day

Woke up before 9am today. Only slept for <5hours.
Waiting for someone to be online to skype...
Yoke Ching my dear and another friend.
Talk to my dear like old times. Miss her so much.
Told her the good news and found out that she lied about one thing.
Haha! Ching, you know what I'm talking about. You lose. :P
~Nei nei nei nei bu bu~

Mouth gatal today.
Forced myself to go out for dinner. (Only coco crunch for lunch. Pity me. Lazy.)
Not because of dinner actually. It's because of my snack and junk food.
Spent 6MYR on useless things. Dad sure scolds me if he knew.

Junk food bought:

These will hold me up tonight. Hehehe!

2009-09-25T05:34:00.004-05:00

Woke up at 9am. Online as usual.
Cleaned my room. Instant Noodles as lunch.
FB again. MSN with my dear Ching Ching. Something has happened but she didn't tell me.
Played mahjong whole afternoon. Watched ants crawling on my table. =="
Went to bath. BUT, I forgot to bring my towel! =.=" shit! Came out wet, water's dripping.
Now...thinking about going out to have dinner alone.
Poor me. The life in INTI during Raya holiday. Not beneficial at all...
After dinner,(lucky me to have Marvin to accompany. Thx man.) bought eggs for breakfast.

Expiry date: 18 OCT. => an egg per day (have to) ==
But Marvin told me that half-boiled egg is unhealthy. Is that true?
p/s: Marvin, don't have to care about the 10 cents.

突然活跃的脑细胞

2009-09-24T06:31:00.003-05:00

就在回去英迪学院的路途中，我想了很多。虽然今天只睡了不到两个小时，但是，想的事情却是一堆。可能今天的我比较感性吧。哈哈！

在巴士里，无聊的我望向我们常常都能看到的天空，心里却有种某名的感觉。一种幸福的感觉吧。突然觉得很幸运，因为我活在马来西亚。最重要的是，我的家人、朋友们、我，都还活着。看着碧蓝的天空，一朵朵纯白的云飘着，平时觉得平凡的天空顿时变得很特别、很有吸引力。我觉得我应该更珍惜在这里的时光。我想，要是我去到美国(hopefully)，就算看着同样的天空，感觉应该会很不同吧。这是不是验证了家乡的天空最美的说法？就这样，我呆呆地看着天空，一边听着歌。脑袋里闪过了很多想法，但现在我不记得了。

听着歌，静静地把眼睛闭上，我又想了很多。以前我听歌只在乎音乐，很少会去注意歌词。是秋伦教会了我如何感受歌词。要同时感应音乐和歌词，这样才是领悟那首歌的真正含义。当我听到了蓝又时唱的《秘密》时，让我想起了一个人。听着听着，我慢慢觉得大家讨厌的第三者或是所谓的狐狸精其实也很可怜。其实，每个人都应该有同等的机会去爱一个人。但是，因为缘份或时间的问题而导致她们比别人迟认识了她们的爱人，而且还不能去追求属于自己的爱情，必须压抑着自己的感觉，因为她们会被认定是第三者，不是很可怜吗？在《秘密》这首歌里，我听到了第三者的痛苦。当然，被抢走自己爱人的人也会痛苦。我没有否定这个事实。总之，爱情可以很满足、幸福，也可以是很残忍、痛苦、折磨人的。有时，我觉得爱情可有可无。它只是生活的点缀品，就像在一幅鲜艳的画上加上一层亮晶粉，更吸引人。但是，爱情总是那么诱人，因为，人人都希望被爱、被呵护、被疼。当然，我也不例外。但是，爱情所带来的痛，可不是我曾经能想象到的。直到，我真的痛过了，才知道那种痛真不简单，好难熬的一种感觉。

之后，我感性的脑细胞在听到《残废》这首歌时，又活跃了起来。这首歌很特别，尤其是chorus那个部份。每一句的最后一个字和下一句的第一个字是同音的。这首歌也让我想到一个朋友，一个放不下一段恋情的男性朋友。但是，我也不能为他做什么，因为那是他和他前女友的恋情，不是我能插手的事。感情的事情，是很难放下。有时，连时间的流逝也帮不了多少。这是个人的问题，看是否他/她自己放得下吗。曾经，我也放不下。即使现在，我也不能100%确定我是否已真的放下了，还是，我的心在欺骗着我自己。这就是每个人都会经历的吧？成长的一部份吗?

好像要到Nilai咯。还好今天没有很塞车。第一次在巴士里写部落格，而且还是华文的。

顺便讲讲play girl/play boy。我曾经想过要当play girl。（但是不知道条件够不够，哈哈！所以最终还是没做到。XD）现在的我不想谈恋爱咯！谈了两年半的恋爱，是时候休息了吧？刚好让我遇到一个也不想有女朋友的男生。所以，我在想，参他、跟他很好，应该会没有负担吧？两个根本说不上是情侣但是却好像有喜欢对方，再加上双方都不想开始恋情。这可不是所谓的暧昧关系。因为，双方都不想在一起。这是我的看法。这种关系不会有分手，也不会有伤痛。因为即使以后对方和别人开始谈恋爱，也不会影响到另一方。两个人依然是朋友。但是，别人看来却会认定他们是情侣。这种关系很可能会被人家认为是play girl/play boy的做法吧？（沉思。。。）

不能写了，Nilai好像是要到了。拜拜。

Last Day in Hometown before Going Back to INTI (Raya holiday)

2009-09-23T09:24:00.005-05:00

Today was quite wonderful. I met two of my friends today. One in the morning and the other in the afternoon.

Before I go back to INTI, I have the chance to see him again. Talking to him feels nice. Too bad I didn't get his photo and his car's photo. He didn't allow me to take. He said he's too ugly to take photo. That's why taking photo of him is the thing that he dislikes most. But, I think he is quite good looking. With fair skin, light brown+golden colored hair, and tall, he looks like a guy with mixed blood. He is such an adorable guy. He even apologized to me for not letting me to take photos of him because I look quite unhappy that time. But, before I stepped out of his car, he promised me to let me take next time. I don't know whether he will keep his promise or not, but I'm actually hoping that he will. Too bad he needed to go to bank today at 3p.m., if not, I would have asked him to play bowling with me.

So, I reached home by 2 sth. After having my lunch, which is rendang (my mom cooked it, very delicious), another friend called, asking me out to have laksa. Yeah! He owes me the laksa treat for one and a half year already. Hahaha! At last, he paid what he had promised. After having some chocolates and sugarcane, I was quite full. But, I went out with Wei Siang to search for our laksa. We went to a few places, unfortunately, most were closed. In the end, we had our laksa at 二街. I think it's the so-called "Wai Sek Gai".We ordered two laksa from two different stalls as the first one he ordered wasn't nice. So, he ordered another one for me. Hehe! After chit-chatting for awhile, I demanded to go to other places as I couldn't stand the heat there. Then, he said he wanted to drive me to Jubli Park to let me expose more to the sun. What an evil Wei Siang. However, we ended up at Vinye's house. Hahaha! She was shocked a bit (I think), when I called her and told her that I was outside her house. Since Wei Siang and Vinye both are studying in USM, we had a nice chatting together. Then, we leaved Vinye's house around 5p.m. and went to 大鼻 to have my coconut blend (椰搅). I reached home around 5.30p.m. because he has some sort of meeting to attend. What a busy guy. Another date I guess. Haha! His network is quite wide. Before I left, he even asked me to be fatter someday. He's looking forward to see me becoming fatter. He complained that he always sees the skinny me but never a chubby one. Ya ya ya, as if I'm forcing myself to be skinny.

So, I have decided, to have a half-cooked egg every morning if possible. But, one friend of mine, I forgot who told me, that it's unhealthy to have egg every day. He said he read an article about that before, saying that it's better to eat just an egg per week, instead of eating one per day. Ah, I think it's Chee Pin who told me this, the dislike-photo-taking guy. Then, my sis advised me to do pumping every day. So, I am hoping that I won't be lazy but be consistent with it. Doing pumping and having an egg per day so that I can build muscles. I thought of jogging in INTI but, somehow, I don't really like jogging. Playing badminton is a better sport for me even if I have to suffer from muscular pain, which I'm experiencing now.

Overall, it's a tiring but satisfying day, the last day of Raya holiday at home before I go back to INTI. Once the school reopens, a lot of things will be pestering me. Applications, translation, tests, assignments......bla...bla...bla...Hope that I can deal with them. I missed one important thing. My first and hoping that it's the only Toefl test result is coming out soon! No matter what I get, I'll just accept it. Don't let my emotion gets in the way. Same thing goes to my statistics test 1 result.
Sigh~

5.0 Class Gathering, Year 2009

2009-09-21T10:52:00.005-05:00

Today is a wonderful day afterall - played badminton in the afternoon with my sis, had dinner with my friend at secret recipe and at night, went to class gathering.
Long time didn't ride on Honda Civic. I love that car. Hehe, today I got the chance to ride in the car again. Still as sporty as before. 110km/h on small town road. I love the sound of the engine.
Next time I shall take photos of the car owner and the car. I planned to do so this evening but he didn't allow me to take even 1 photo of him. Ish...

Every year when there's Raya holiday, it's time to have class gathering!
As usual, the venue is at Old Town, at night.
After chatting there, definitely will go to K Box in Village Mall.
It's our next and last station.

^^@--Photos taken in Old Town--@^^

Wei Sheng (so-called Wayson), Choon Shian (s0-called Ah Ten) and Bao Quan (hiding himself).
Can't believe that Wayson wore our class T-shirt to the gathering.
Reason given: because he has no clothes to wear in SP. =.=" what the......

3 leng lui. Chooi Lin, Jooi Nin and Yi Xuan. 2 future doctors are here.

3 leng zai. KJ, KP, and KT. Haha!
KJ is good in studies (always the first in class);
KP is good in sports (most of the sports, esp basketball);
KT is good in music and singing (he can sing very well, the best singer in my class).

Yi Hui, Poh Li, Yimin and I.
Yi Hui: going to Germany soon.
Poh Li: studying in USM.
Yimin: good in singing and studying in UKM.
All are so clever.

Vinye (my lao po), Cai Li and I.
Coincidentally, Vinye wore the same type of clothes with me.
Vinye: USM; Cai Li: STPM, Form 6 in Sin Min.

And here we are, again.
There are still lots of photo. Too bad I don't have them with me now.
After I dl them from FB, if possible, I'll post them here. Hehehe!
Class 5.0 memories...Sweet sweet time.

Yeah! New photos grabbed from FB.

This is definitely taken after I left K Box. Guys~

Girls~ Have Fun!

Taken in old town, with my lovely nai ba, KJ.

With Yimin.

And the last one, photo of all of us that attended class gathering.
Class 5.0 is the best! Once a 5.0, always a 5.0 classmate.
Hooray! =)

Homemade Mooncakes at Grandma's house

2009-09-20T07:12:00.006-05:00

First time leaving my house after I reached SP. Where to go?
Of course is my grandma's house, with my sis.
Both of us went to visit our grandma, uncle and aunt.
In addition, we went there to learn how to make mooncakes.

This is the best red bean paste mooncake that we had made because it's too hard to make.
In case you haven't noticed, it is hello kitty shape.

This is the second best. (Made by my sis, then rescued by my aunt.)

And this is the one I made, the worst among the other two.
I can't even know that it is a hello kitty. Hahaha!

These two are the prettiest among all.

Here, we have mickey mouse, hello kitty and the others.

My aunt and Buami, making "kong zai pia" in the kitchen.

Ta-da! "kong zai pia" that are going into oven soon. Hehehe.

Tomorrow is going to be an exciting day. Anticipating... =)

Raya! 9 days! Hohoho!

2009-09-17T07:35:00.004-05:00

Selamat Hari Raya to all Malaysians! Yahoo! 9 days of holiday.
Finally, my brother is willing to drive me home.
Whole family is getting together again!
Papa, mama, kor kor, jie jie and me, except my beloved Bobo.
What to do during these 9 days?
Planning...... Hmmm...

1st: 5.0 class gathering! [21st Sept] Yeah, can see KJ, the nai ba d. Miss him so much! This time, there will be less crowd. Some have flown to US, Japan, Australia...... =(

2nd: If possible, I hope to gather all my NS friends and meet all of them. Last time when they gathered, I wasn't able to attend. How sad it was.

3rd: Badminton! My favorite. I didn't play or even hold my racket in the last few holidays at all. As I couldn't find anyone to play with and Bao Quan they all bo jio me! Hate you guys!

4th: Bowling! Another one of my favorite hobbies. I played once during the last holiday until my arm was so painful. (Result of playing 3 hours nonstop with Kok Peng.)

5th: Go to Penang! Ask MJ out to pool?? Hmm...not sure about that.

6th: Play Diablo II with kor kor? Need to screw Diablo AGAIN as I forgot to enter the portal last time. =.=" I was so blurred.

However, all these wouldn't happen if no one is willing to drive me. Daddy, why don't you let me drive? :( I didn't drive for more than a year already. I also have a poor sense of direction. =.=

2009-09-14T10:39:00.005-05:00

Recently, there are many things happening in my life.
1st: TOEFL [12th Sept 2009]
Started preparing it on Wednesday. Went there with a plan to retake, but now still considering.
The night before Friday, talk to a friend of Kam. Only slept for 10 hours in 2 days. So, having Toefl during the period was tiring.
After the test, went to Sunway with Xiao Ting, Sin yi and the most adorable couple (Sik Hoe and Michelle). It was raining at that time. What did caring Sik Hoe do?

Third time to Sunway Pyramid. First time to Red Box. We sang for 3 hours more and spent 193MYR in total. *Sweat* Then, watched movie - Where Got Ghost. I'm not sure whether it's my the first time watching ghost movie or not (not really a ghost movie actually). Luckily I have my jacket to "protect" me from viewing it. Hahaha! Same goes to Sin Yi. But she seemed to be braver than me. In the end, we reached INTI quite late, around midnight. Since I was too tired, I slept like a pig once I reached my room; only woke up at 1pm the next day. =.="

2nd: Friendship Problems [13th Sept 2009]
It is the first time that I heard something like this, "you are too friendly, I'm not used to it", making me felt like a weirdo for being too friendly. I never know that being friendly can be a wrong thing to do. Aren't people who are Aries should be very friendly and active? Don't say that I blame all the things on horoscope, but I do believe some description and explanation of horoscope. Because of this pop-up problem, Kam, his friend and I weren't in the mood at all that night. [Sorry Kam, even though you have told me that it has nothing to do with me, but I still feel that I do have the responsibility in this matter.] What happened in the end? I slept less than 2 hours, as I only slept at 6.30 am the next day.

3rd: Skype + Accounting Test 1 [14th Sept 2009]
However, I need to clarify something. There's another reason for me to sleep late. It was because of knowing another new friend who is in Canada now. We skyped from midnight till morning. It's nice to know new friend. I was surprised that I managed to be quite energetic for my accounting test which was at 10 a.m. I guess bathing in the morning do freshen me up. Anyway, I ended up replenishing my energy level by sleeping from 4 p.m. - 8p.m.

Lesson learned:
Do not wait for someone who is not worth it. No matter what you feel, never forget what is the most important and appropriate thing to do. If possible, ignore what you feel so that you can concentrate in rational things that are going to affect your life profoundly.
Do not have to be so initiative in some of the things as people might get annoyed with you. So, just stay away.

To Yoke Ching

2009-09-04T04:02:00.004-05:00

No matter how far we are from each other, I believe that our hearts will be together.

Friends that stand by your side when you are in troubles are true friends. Friends that won't expect any return from you, friends that won't deceive you, friends that won't be jealous of you, and friends that believe you with all their hearts, they are your true friends.

"You are my best friend." This is a brief but meaningful sentence. At least, it means a lot to me.

I know you want me to be great in my life. I believe that you want me to be happy with my life, where there's no sorrow or heart-rending events. I understand your hope of me being hardworking, and consistent in my studies and whatever I'm doing. You want us to be successful in the future. Even though you didn't really tell me all these, I can read what is in your heart.

I believe that people are born to be good, to be an angel. As I have told you before, it's the environment, bad exposures and wrong teachings that lead them the wrong way. So, forgive those that may have hurt you. Please don't let your heart walk the wrong path.

My friend,be patient and do believe in your ability. Whatever hardship you face, see it as a challenge that the God gives you. When you are helpless, disappointed or sad, remember, your best friend is always here to back you up.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

Do take care of yourself well. I know you won't fall sick as often as I will. Take care of your diet. I don't want to see you turning into a pig next year. Do lower down your voice when you talk. Hehe. :P
Don't play too much. Study more. Other than that, skype more with me. Wahahahaha!

I'm going to miss you a lot. I know you will too.
I miss hugging you. I miss the time we've been together. I miss sleeping on the same bed with you (even though you hit me quite hard at night when we were sleeping). I miss watching you wash clothes. I miss the time we argue like an enemy (but we will always forgive each others after the fight with no hard feelings). I miss the time we revise microeconomics together. I miss your laugh. I miss your moon-like face. I miss hearing you call me "sei pat poh", "sei yeh", "yaksi", "soh gei". I miss fighting with you (which have been recorded by your roommate). I miss the time we criticizing people (but this is bad though). I miss singing with you in my room. I also miss molesting you. Haha!
p/s: Seriously, we are not lesbians.

Short semester

2009-09-04T03:07:00.004-05:00

Here it goes. Another new semester. My second last semester and first short semester.
I don't know whether I will be very busy or not. But, as far as I concern, there's a lot of things to do before and after the semester is over.

12th Sept - TOEFL ( haven't started preparing yet ) ; Yoke Ching will be leaving M'sia.
[sorry my dear. You know that I won't be able to hug you for the last time before you leave M'sia] So what? Right? True friendships will never be influenced by small matters like this.
29th Nov - Returning of "hiao" Edwin from Australia [A gathering is coming!]

What about Raya? Hmm...Maybe I'm not going back. I don't want to be a tuna just for 9 days of holiday. So? Going to rot in my room, or if possible, going to Genting Highland with siblings?
I have no idea. But one thing for sure, I'm not going back by bus nor flight. :)

New wishes:
Be healthy. [Ya right. I only know how to wish but never really put a real effort in making it becomes true.]
Be hardworking. [Said so for 2 sems d. Still, failed in the end. Too playful?]
Be independent. [Not independent enough yet. Still a long way to go.]

What Mr. Nathan has taught me last semester? Other than calculus 1, there are 3 words.
HUMBLE, KIND, and KNOWLEDGEABLE.
Did I manage to do all? No. I will only know the answer before I'm old or dying.

What's going to happen in this semester? Most people have no idea. I'm not a fortune teller but I know that this semester is going to be hectic.

Johor! My Sis's Convo!

2009-08-22T09:12:00.008-05:00

While waiting for the delayed flight, I took photo with my mom.
Mother and daughter do look alike. =)

Where were we heading to? KL!
This was my sister's plan. We went to KL first.
Then my brother drove us ( dad, mom and me) to Skudai, Johor.
Just to attend my sis's convo, her first degree.
Deng! Deng!

Isn't she pretty? Ya, and she's cute too. XD

After the convo, we took a photo together outside Dewan Iskhandar.

She received lots of gifts from her juniors and friends, and admirers too. XD

My brother bought her a petshop sling bag and a hug pig soft toy. Almost RM 200.
3 of us taking photo around campus.

This is the chinese name of the hotel.
After taking 60 over photos around campus, we headed to our hotel, Kingston hotel.
I called it the pendrive hotel. :)

The ceiling of the hotel.

It was a tiring day as you can see above.
My mom and my big brother, waiting for the hotel to clean the room.

My sis, standing in front of the counter, waiting.

This hotel is quite nice. Too bad I didn't take any photo of the room.
RM113.40 for a room with a double bed and one single bed, with attached bath room too.
It's clean and comfortable. Not bad.

Here are some photos that she took around her campus.

Susu, her good friend.

Joseph and my sis. He is one year younger than my sis.

My sis looks very pretty in this photo. Too bad the photo is too small.

PELTAC's director and PELTAC's secretary. :)

"The Proposal" at Sunway Carnival

2009-08-21T09:45:00.005-05:00

Sunway Carnival ( Butterworth ), with Ah Peng.

In the car, going to butterworth.
See the color? Is the blue color highlight nice?
Photo taken by 1.3MP hp.

Finally, arrived at Sunway Carnival!
It's time to watch my movie, "The Proposal".
It's a nice movie. I love Sandra Bullock.
She is such a beauty.

That's why I watched this movie.
This movie is funny. You will definitely laugh. Hahaha!

After the movie, it's time for shoes hunting!
I have always wanted to buy a pair of flat shoes that I can wear to class.
Finally, I found it! 20% discount, Le Sandee.

Haha! Can't wait to try it on in the car after I bought it.
The shoes is red in color. A bit shinny.
I seldom see shoes with this color.
That's what caught me to buy.

But the shoes seems like a bit hard to match with clothes.
Hmm...I know that it matches with my long jeans.
But what about my short pants?
I shall try it out tomorrow at 7 a.m. as I'm going to have breakfast at KFC .
Haha! It sounds a bit crazy, right?
I think I'll have new photos for tomorrow. =)

2009-07-14T12:25:00.001-05:00

I'm a O30-C2-E48-A63-N96 Big Five!!

Malaysian Studies Class

2009-06-22T08:15:00.004-05:00

What can we learn in Malaysian Studies class?
Malaysia history?
Government system?
Parliament?
Sleeping?
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No No No.

The answer is......

how to make a silly facial expression!
:P
Haha!

Guess who is this?

Don't worry. I asked for his consent just now when he bluetoothed the photo to me.
He's cute, right?
[This is a highly difficult silly facial expression.
So, do not try this at home.]
I tried to do it, but still can't get the same effect.

Dating in June

2009-06-20T06:41:00.012-05:00

6th of June - Times Square

~Skip all the shopping experience~

It's tea time! Which restaurant? He said he wanted to try Ramen. So, we chose Mr. Ramen!
(It's not a good choice at all. You will know it later)

We ordered only 1 set meal. (He said it's cheaper)
What do we get from the set meal?

A cup of green tea!
Don't even look like a green tea to me.
It's just a very low quality tea.
Is this a real Japanese restaurant?

A mango pudding that doesn't look nice at all!
And it's very small. =.="

While eating, I saw this! Can't see clearly? Camera resolution is too low. Paisei.
It's fried noodles with prawns.
Can't believe that I could find this in a Japanese restaurant.

Can you see that cup? This is how my green tea should be looked like!
We were cheated!!!

After paying for that lousy meal, we came to 1st floor. There were so many children.
I didn't know what it was, but I guessed it's about monopoly.
Passed by and took some photos.

Went to ground floor. There's an exhibition.
A white carriage.

Horses that were painted differently with different themes.

Kim Ping, standing right next to a horse, as if the horse was kissing him.
Then what about me?

Me, standing next to the same horse. -.-"
I looked so short. Sigh~

Then, we went to lower ground floor.
There's a car exhibition. All cars looked so expensive. sweat~
Kim Ping was attracted to a car.
This one! Dang-dang-dang-dang!

-Left view-

-Right view-
Look at the light of this car. The shape was something like human eye.
So handsome!

Inside of that car. Nice, right?

Guess what is above the car?

Wow! The front view! This is one really gorgeous car.

Hehehe! It's me! Sitting in one of the luxurious cars, posing. Yeng leh?
Kim Ping captured it for me. :)

Inside the car that I posed.

ta-da! The front view of the car that I sat inside.

The car that my bf chose is prettier or mine?

7th June - One Utama

Last day for him to be stay in KL. So, I forced him to take photos with me.
Hahaha!
Hmm...His face looked a bit weird.

From this angle, my face has become a swollen face.
Not nice at all.

Taken in the bathroom, in front of a mirror. I was practicing my photo-capturing skill.
Okay or not?

At Kelana Jaya bus stop.
Waiting for bus U89 that will take us to 1Utama.
Yoke Ching would meet us at 1U.

After shopping and eating, it's time to go back to KL central.
Yoke Ching brought us to a very expensive shop, named Zara.
There's a big mirror.
Didn't waste this opportunity.
Dragged my bf to take photo with me.
:( ng~ng~ng~
I always looked so little when I'm with him.

After that, it's time to say goodbye.
He took ktm to klang.
Yoke Ching and I took ktm back to Nilai.
He cried. But I know he will be fine after this.
-2days 3nights trip-
^^ THE END ^^

Mern Jie Forced Me to Complete His Tag

2009-05-30T06:35:00.002-05:00

Being forced to do this.
Rule: Be honest no matter what, then tag at least 10 friends. (i won't tag others)
01. Who was your last text from?
[no text today]
02. Where was your default picture taken?
[Taken in hostel]
03. Your relationship status?
[In a relationship]
04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
[Yes, he's DL, he is a little brother to me, not a friend]
05. What is your current mood?
[don't feel like doing a thing, but forced to do this tag]
06. How many siblings do you have?
[2]
07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
[Bro: Pei Wen ; Sis: Wanlyn]
08. Where do you wish you were right now?
[my sweet home, eating bak zhang.=(]
09. Have a crazy side?
[you can ask yoke ching or joanne]
10. Ever had a near death experience?
[no, i'm protected by god]
11. Something you do a lot?
[recently, being emo and playing playfish games on facebook]
12. Angry at anyone?
[can't really be angry at someone for long time]
13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
[distance and classes, as my bf is 6hours away]
14. When was the last time you cried?
[just today, only a few drops of tear]
15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
[my parents and family]
16. What are you thinking about when you are falling asleep?
[how would i knw? i would be unconscious that time]
17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
[kim ping]
18. What is your favorite song?
[你不懂我的明白-李玖哲]
19. What are you doing right now?
[forced by mern jie to do this tag]
20. Who do you trust right now?
[my family]
21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
[mami bought for me]
22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
[no, maybe i kissed my little pillow when i was sleeping last night]
23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
[closest?block S residents]
24. Describe your life in one word?
[boring]
25. Who are you thinking of right now?
[no one]
26. What should you be doing right now?
[studying for my religion and econ test]
27. What are you listening to?
[nothing]
28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
[forgot, maybe yoke ching, mayb bf...tak tahu]
29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
[nobody yells at me]
30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
[totally]
31. What is your natural hair color?
[black]
32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
[kim ping]
33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
[also kim ping]
34. What do you hear?
[i heard my laptop, maybe it's the fans of my laptop]
35. Is your hair curly or straight?
[they said my hair is straight]
36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
[no]
37. Do you have a best friend?
[sure]
38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
[no]
39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
[of course]
40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
[no, maybe my mom chg for me when i was little, which i can't rmb]
41. Are you happy with life right now?
[kind of]
42. Are you currently jealous?
[no]
43. What jewelery are you wearing now?
[a necklace that i wear everyday]
44. What were you doing on friday night?
[online till 4am saturday morning]
45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
[ya]
47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
[a bit disappointed only]
48.What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
[skin allergy]
49.How late did you stay up last night and why?
[4am, online]
50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
[ya, current bf, 2 years more]

Chinese Cultural Night (~Fashion Show~)

2009-05-29T11:27:00.014-05:00

Just got the Cultural Night's photo from my friend.
The most interesting one would be fashion show.
Lets look at what happened that night.
[to see a bigger size photo, click on it.]

Back Stage:

~24 Solar Drums~

~Fashion Show~

-The King and the Queen-

-Michelle, the beautiful queen-

-Shu Xian, what a beauty-

-She's a great model-

-Angel, cute~-

-Ah Heong, pretty girl-

-Clothes for the relatives of the noble king-

-Yong le, she's very cute!-

-Clothes of the minorities tribe-

-Clothes for the princess-

-Here comes the King! Cool, right?-

-Clothes for the minister of Dinasti-

^^All Together^^

~Miss INTIs~

So many pretty girls that night.
Ticket of RM 5 for all these
(There were also other shows, such as diabolo, chinese orchestra, etc.)

Childhood Dream Comes True

2009-05-29T11:05:00.004-05:00

I've been loving pool since I was little.
Guess what?
Today, finally I get to play pool!
Yippee!
Even though I'm suck in it.
(I'm first-time player, what do u expect?)

Fortunately, I asked Meng Hon to join me.
He taught me how to hold the stick and the pose.
Kam and Hao Xiang didn't really teach me the right way.
They just taught me the rules.
And the difference between pool and snooker.
The while ball always jumped when I hit it.
Lousy skill.
And it always ran straight to the hole.

Played for less than 2 hours.
Satisfied.
Cost: RM 15 ++
Bring back: experience+excitement+good mood
In the end, I think it's worth.
Waiting for the next pool game.
Hehehe!
Too bad I don't have camera to capture the cool poses.=(

First Time Being Tagged. (Ei gee ooi, Ei gee ooi)

2009-05-29T10:17:00.003-05:00

1. Beside your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed? [My cute little pillow and my bf's cheeks, i guess.]
2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning? [sleep for 5hours more only, but still quite invigorative.]
3. Who was the last person/people you took a picture with? [hmm...can't really rmb, i think it's Ai Theng.]
4. Would you consider yourself spoiled? [in the past, yes! now? definitely not.]
5. Will you donate blood? [I will if I could. haha! but it's impossible for me to reach the requirements.]
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? [I have more than one now. hehe.]
7. Do you want someone to be dead? [No, it's so cruel. wait...maybe those cruel criminals or inhumane rapist.]
8. What does your last text message say? [bf said he had headache. slept for whole day and he missed me. ^^]
9. What are you thinking right now? [Why am I stuck here to answer these questions?]
10. Do you want someone to be with you right now? [Not really. want to bath and blog. need some private space now.]
11. What was the time you went to bed last night? [2am]
12. Where did you buy tee you are waering right now? [Janice gave me that shirt. Haha! Because it's shrunken after being in the dryer.]
13. Is someone on your mind right now? [ya, Janice(as i just mentioned), my bf(usually in my mind) and ei gee that tagged me.]
14. Who was the last person who text you? [Kim Ping=my boyfriend]

tag:
1.Janice
2.Mern Jie
3.Emily
4.Marvin
5.Sujia
6.Joanne Lee
7.Sin Yi, Heng
8.Wei Siang
9.Kian Hui

15. Who is No.2 having a relationship with? [I guess it's jesslyn.(just guessing)]
16. Is No.3 is male or female? [female]
17. If No.7 and No.1 get togather, would it be good? [both of them are female! and they are absolutely not lesbians. so, what do u think?]
18. What is No.1 studying about? [Economics.]
19. When was the last time you chatted with them? [recently. but not all. Kian Hui has been 2 years already.]
20. Is No.4 single? [ya]
21. Say something about No.2 [good luck in it. u knw what i mean with "it". haha.]
22. What do you thing No.3 and No.6 being togather? [AGAIN, both of them are female. haha!]
23. Describe No.9 [About him...emm...not really close with him. But i guess he's a nice guy and his appearance is quite ok.]
24. What will you do if No.6 and No.7 fight? [calm them down and try to get them back together as friends. Nah, they won't fight la. seriously. Both of them are kind and good ppl.]
25. Do you like No.8? [He is a friend that I met when I was doing a part time job in Giant Hypermarket. He is a nice guy. So, just a friend.]

一封有趣的E-MAIL

2009-05-26T12:33:00.000-05:00

如果结婚是爱情的坟墓
一年一次的结婚纪周年庆祝，便是在“扫墓”了

完全相反的个性：（婚前时）互补
完全相反的个性：（离婚时）性格不合

婚后的男人，只图“耳根清净”
婚后的女人，只图“不见为净”

爱情的开始：希望给对方一个未来
爱情的结束：希望给自己一个未来

别人的另一半：艺术品
自己的另一半：日用品

热恋时，再夸张的谎言都听成是情话
结婚后，在认真的情话都当成是废话

在爱情中：有人“视死如归”
在婚姻中：有人“视归如死”

真的吗？

18岁女学生提分手遭欧打強姦

2009-05-22T00:23:00.007-05:00

18歲女學生提分手遭毆打強姦

2009-05-14 12:40

（雪蘭莪‧加影）一名18歲的女學生相約前男友談判分手不過，還慘遭前男友帶往住家施暴且強姦2次。

據悉，這起案件發生於週日，受害者當天約晚上9時，正打算和前男友在車廂內談判他們目前的關係。

之後，前男友要求受害者把車開往其附近一所公寓的住家，以便談判。

據瞭解，當抵達該公寓的時候，受害者被前男友強拉至屋內，隨後由於受害者拒絕前男友進行性關係的要求，還遭到毆打。

據消息，受害者曾經作出抵抗，但是最終還是被強姦2次。

據悉，前男友可能不甘心分手而對受害者進行強姦而作為報復。

星洲互動‧2009.05.14

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This is horrible. Guys nowadays are very aggressive and dangerous. Even our own bf also can't be trusted. What's wrong with the society?!

Influenza A (H1N1) is here.

2009-05-17T05:26:00.004-05:00

QUARANTINE FOR PASSENGERS ON AIR ASIA FLIGHT AK5358

"PUTRAJAYA: All 101 passengers and five crew members who were on an AirAsia flight that flew from the low cost carrier terminal (LCCT) in Sepang to Penang on May 13 (11am) will be put under home quarantine immediately. The flight AK5358 was the one taken by the second confirmed influenza A (H1N1) case."

OMG! Can't believe that H1N1 will reach M'sia.
Does this mean that we shouldn't go to KL within this period?
No Sunway Pyramid? No Genting Highland? No Times Square?......=.="

So, this influenza is spreading in M'sia now.
What should we do?
Always stay in our rooms unless it's lunch time or it's time for classes?

Nah! Don't be too panic. Everything is going to be fine. (Be optimistic.)

领悟

2009-05-17T00:58:00.007-05:00

#1 心胸放大点

#2 把事情放小点

#3 往好的方面想

#4 凡事以大局为重

#5 懂得为自己而活

#6 做人不要这么计较

#7 思想不要那么的执着

#8 把所有事情都看开点

#9 懂得几时要以牙还牙

#10 会分辨哪些人是值得珍惜，哪些是废物

Psychology: Left Vs. Right

2009-05-16T03:12:00.009-05:00

My psychology lecturer asked our class to take the brain dominance test.
See whether your left brain or right brain is more dominant.

I thought I was equal, meaning that my left and right brain developed evenly.
But, too bad, I'm not like that.

I'm using left hand to write and right hand to carry my bag and stuff.
I even write calligraphy using right hand.
I play badminton, basketball, bowling, ping pong with right hand.
Besides that, I can't draw.
Thus, I thought I would be equal.

This is the result of the test.
"You responded as a right brained person to 13 questions, and you responded as a left brained person to 5questions. According to the Hemispheric Dominance test, you use your right brain the most. The summary briefly describes your dominance type. Remember, this only represents half of the picture. After you read the description, click on the link at the bottom of the page to find out how to use this information to improve your study strategies. Do not forget to print your results, if your instructor has requested you to do so."

"Some of the traits associated with the right side of the brain are listed in the table. Not all of the traits will apply to you. Remember, we use both side of our brain, but your right sides gets the most exercise."

Type of Cognitive Processing	Brief Description
Holisitc	Processing information from whole to part; sees the big picture first, not the details.
Random	Processing information with out priority, jumps form one task to another.
Concrete	Processes things that can be seen , or touched - real objects.
Intuitive	Processes information based on whether or not it feels right know answer but not sure how it was derived.
Nonverbal	Processes thought as illustrations.
Fantasy-Oriented	Processes information with creativity; less focus on rules and regulations

In Calculus 1 Class (Tuesday)

2009-05-16T02:48:00.006-05:00

12th of May 2009 (Tuesday)

As you can read from the title - this picture was taken in calculus class. 12p.m. - 2p.m.

Left: Kam ;Right: Yong Bin (the one with a bread in this hands, haha! XD)

What can you see in this picture?
One with his hand on this face, another with his bread in his hands?

Both of them have class from 8:00 a.m. to 2:00 p.m., then 4:00 p.m. to 6:00 p.m.
Pity, right? Both were hungry and tired.

I volunteered myself to da bao for Yong Bin caz I met him outside the library at around 10a.m.
But, he was going to class, and rejected my help.
ENG GAI! haha!
(Please don't misunderstand, no hard feelings, really.)

This picture was taken because I think it's kind of funny.
And I was too bored at that time.

Just want to clarify something - both of them know that I'm going to post it on blog.
:P !Hehehe! :P
n.n

The Day After Second Sem Final Exam.

2009-05-16T02:23:00.004-05:00

19th of April 2009...

One sms received...
"Do you have any meat or food?"
Weird...
Doo...doo...doo... (calling)
Actually, my friend saw a cat and he thought the cat was very hungry. (What a nice guy.)

So, I decided to help him.
The little kitty kept on biting his fingers and toes. That's why he thought it's hungry.

We brought the kitty to dining hall.
Bought chocolate swiss roll for it (what a lucky kitty.)
And you know what? After eating a few pieces of swiss roll, it stopped.
Then, he asked me to buy a bottle of mineral water for it.
(He thought the swiss roll was too dry.)

That kitty was very insolent.
It didn't care or even appreciate what we had done for it.
Too bad you guys can't see the face of that heartless kitten.

Hence, I asked him to take photos of that kitty so that I can post it on my blog.
(But I forgot to blog it until now.)

So, beware of this kitty.
Don't get cheated by it.
Haha! Just kidding. If you see it, please help it. Maybe it really needs our help.
XD

New Friend - Osman

2009-05-05T21:27:00.004-05:00

After psychology class, I'm free! No classes for today. Yahoo! ( Even though I need to wake up early in the morning to attend the class. )

After discussing with the lecturer about the division of group, I went back straight to my hostel. On the way, guess what? I bumped into the guy that I met last time in AO. He's a nice guy, I think. And apparently, he remembers me. After starting a conversation with a greet, we started to introduce ourselves. His name is Osman. I think he's an international student but I don't know which country he's from. I also don't know which block he's staying but for sure, he's living nearby as we met at block N. He promised me that he'll tell me everything about him the next time we meet, which I don't knw when. Haha!

Actually he's on his way to class and when I met him, it's already 10:10a.m., which means he was already late to a class named "digital....". Ok, I admit it. I forgot about it, because the name sounds complicated and sophisticated. I felt so bad as I stole his time by chatting with him for like 5 minutes, I guess. I'm sorry, Osman. But he's really nice to talk to, so I failed to keep my mouth shut even though I'm a quiet and shy girl. Ok, don't bother about what I had just said. I know what you are thinking. ( I'm a self-absorbed girl, right? )

Ya, we did exchange phone numbers. By the way, I feel...erm...maybe happy? I don't know what are the other words I can use to describe my feelings now. To be simple, I am in a good mood right now. Getting to know a new friend is a good thing afterall. So, I must learn how to socialize with people. I admit that I'm not pro in socializing. Actually, I think I'm kinda terrible in this area. I don't know what topic I should talk to people, how to start a good conversation, or how to stay in a conversation. But, we are born to learn. =)

Spotted Handphone!

2009-04-29T22:38:00.006-05:00

SE G900!!! I spotted this phone! Touch-screen, 2.4 inch screen, secondary video cam, 3G, WIFI, navigator, 99g, 160MB, 5 mega pixels (16x)....
AP: RM 900++
Ori: Around RM 1300
Color Available: Dark brown / dark red

For me, I prefer red color as my current phone K810i is also dark red. I don't know whether I'll buy it or not but I think this phone is quite nice. The design is also pretty. The price....er....RM 1300 is too much for me. What you guys think of this phone? I have read other people's comments about this phone. Some of them claimed that this phone has lag problem. Some said "so far so good". Some suggested that the lag problem can be solved by updating the software of the phone at SE service center. All the information that I wrote here can be gathered from the internet.

1 Morning In This Holiday

2009-04-29T21:54:00.004-05:00

I bought a shirt today at the morning market. The color is quite special and it's cheap. If Yoke Ching see this, she sure thinks that this shirt is only RM 1 (like she always does.) While taking the photo of this shirt, I also took the photo of other shirts and things. You would see them later.

Purple color handbag that my mom bought at Thailand long time ago but no one is using it. So, maybe I'll take back to INTI. See first.

This is another handbag which is very convenient for me to match with any clothes as it's made from jeans. Stole it from my mom. (Not really, because I've asked her permission.)

Collection of soft toys that people gave to my sis and I. Almost all the soft toys are mine but the cow in the front is my sis 2009 present from my brother. The cute little puppy is my present from the person I love so much but......
The pooh and the pig was my b'day present when I was 15 years old (Form 3) from my k papa and my good friend (03). Haha.
The huge strawberry was my last year b'day present from my bf that he bought at Cameron Highland. (Received in last year Nov)
The one beside the cow, white color dog (I guess) was also my b'day present that my brother gave to me.

This shirt is this year b'day present 4 the one that gave me the cute little puppy when I was in Form 4. Hope you will always be happy and healthy. I know the time has come. I realize it. I won't be that stupid anymore. (Maybe I just can't do it) Haha...

I found this shirt at my mom's closet. Stole it. Hehehe! It's very nice and suitable for me to wear to class. Nice o not?

This is the one that I bought this morning. How much? Only RM 10. The clothes that are sold in my hometown are really cheap. Haha! Going to bring back to INTI. Yeah! New clothes. XD

Actually I bought some private things also. So, can't post them here. Haha...shy la...

Rainy Day

2009-04-06T01:24:00.005-05:00

Finally, I'm back in my sweet little room (if there is no rmt), eating my meal and blogging at the same time. I thought today would be a lousy and miserable day for me but, I have found one thing to make my day better.

Just now, I got back my economic test result. There are good news and bad news. The bad news is, I don't get full mark in that test and my group lost 3 marks in economic presentation. However, at least my marks in that test is not so low and I think the presentation is not bad also. =)

When I was on my way back to hostel, I feel motivated. I realize that what I get is what I've worked hard for it. So, if I did not do well in anything, especially tests or examination, I'm the one should be blamed. I may have worked very hard for the test but if it turns out to be bad, I can't blame others also as it might be the wrong technique that I used to study for the test. There's a lot of reasons for a particular incident to happen. I realize and understand that blaming others and finding excuse are the worst things to do.

The sky is raining heavily now. Sometimes, I like rain. You know why? Because I listen to nothing but the sound of rain. It's kind of peaceful although some people may find raining to be noisy. Someone has influenced me about my perception towards rain. When I was little, I disliked rainy days because I was scared of coldness and I didn't like the frightening thunder and lightning. However, DL likes rainy days. He told me about the things he wants to do during rainy days. I do not know whether he has achieved his dreams or not but I really hope that he will achieve them someday and I have the chance to experience them with him. Because of him, my feelings toward rain has changed. I remember last time Yoke Ching and I ran under the rain and felt the touch of rain on our skins. I don't know whether she enjoyed it but I really love that feeling. I wish that someday I will have the chance to experience the rain with him.

Ring!!! Time's up! No more blogging. Time to listen to the sound of rain. :D

My Last Test in This Long Semester.

2009-04-05T20:50:00.004-05:00

Today, I slept at five something and woke up at 7:30 a.m. I can feel the weight in my head but I forced myself to wake up because today has chemistry test. 5 chapters in one night, horrible experience, right? Who asked me to be so addicted to blogging now? This is the opportunity cost that I need to pay. Luckily, I got friends to help me in test. Thanks to you guys. And my lecturer is such a nice teacher. XD

Anyway, the test has finally been over. I don't know how I did in the test. But for sure, I hope for the best since the test is 20 marks! Later at 12 p.m., I have economic class. So, I just drop by at the library to blog for awhile. Will my lecturer give back the economic test paper today? I'm wondering. I'm aiming for high score in that test. Even though it is just 10 marks, I hope to get full marks in it.

Final exam is coming very soon. I've not even started to revise any subjects. I think I should start studying now. ( But I think I won't carry out what I plan. ) This is me. Who knows me will know that I've not changed any. What a miserable me.

My friend, Yoke Ching asked me to study now. She doesn't want me to waste my time too much in blogging. I know whatever she did is for my own good. So, I think it's time for me to stop writing. See ya!

p/s: Thanks Yoke Ching. Don't be sad. I'll be by your side when you need me. Please share your problems or your feelings with me. I'll try my best to be the best listener that I can be. Don't give up. You are always the best to me.

DL

2009-04-04T21:00:00.003-05:00

I feel glad that DL is safe and healthy now. At least he is still willing to answer my questions. His health condition has not become worse as the doctor does not increase the amount of his medication. Besides that, I can sense that he is happy now. These two play the most important roles for him. I'm glad that he's happy and healthy now.

He told me that he's chasing a girl right now and he used a lot of money on that. I hope that the girl that he's chasing will take care of him well, love him and will only bring happiness to him.

DL has grown up. He is not the little boy that I thought he was before. He asked me not to treat him as little boy for two times already. Yesterday was the second time. I think asking some stupid questions has become my bad habit. Maybe I care too much about him so I keep on asking him questions that make him think that I treat him like a child. But anyway, I will try not to ask so many questions. As long as I know that he is happy and healthy now, I will be happy as well. I just want to know how's his life now, whether he is happy or sad. This is all I'm asking for. I hope that I can be the one who can help him when he has problems.

p/s: thanks for giving me the chance to know about your life, DL.

RM 1

2009-04-04T01:41:00.007-05:00

Today after I went to dining hall to buy my lunch, on my way back to my hostel block, I dropped RM 1. A kind chinese guy saw it and returned the money to me. Suddenly, I feel blessed even though it's just 1 ringgit.

And I recognize the guy who returns me the money although I just saw him once on the road in INTI campus. He is a chinese guy, I think, as he speak mandarin with his friends. Maybe my memory power is better than I thought. Haha!

Recently, I found a drink which is quite cheap and nice. There are 3 flavors. One is green tea+apple flavor, another is green tea+forest fruits flavor but I didn't try the last flavor yet but I know its packaging is yellow in color.

The one at left is forest fruits flavor, right one is apple flavor.

At last, I've tasted all three flavors! Haha! This is green tea+lemon flavor.

-THE END-

After reading my last post.

2009-04-04T00:38:00.008-05:00

It's been a while that I did not visit my blog or add anything new. Today, when I reopened this blog, I saw my last post, which is about my bf. Through this post, I can feel that I love this guy very much at the time when I was writing that post. Now only I realize that in the past, I really love him very much. But now, maybe because the time has passed by, I'm suspecting that he is just my habit. Maybe being with him is just a habit or is about love. I do not have a confident answer for myself now. But anyway, I will still be with him even if being with him is just a habit.

I don't want to have any new changes in my life now, especially in love relationship. I just want to study peacefully and have friends to be with me. Maybe I just want to concentrate on what I should do now but not love. This does not mean that I do not love him anymore. Maybe I just don't have the mood to date. But sometimes, like last night, I miss him very much which I do not know why. But I did not call him because my phone has no money. Actually I can ask my friend to sms him because I know, he will call me back but I did not do so as I want him to concentrate on his studies and when he really misses me, he will call me. I don't want to make him think that I just treat him as a tool that is used to accompany me when I need him.

Then, last night, when I was watching drama, he called. I rushed out of my room with my phone to answer his call (because Yoke Ching was in my room watching drama with me). I told him everything that I feel and I was very happy and excited that time. This tells me that I really do love him but still I am doubtful about my feelings.

I think I will continue to write my blog (if I have the determination or consistency). Haha! But I do not know whether I should publicize my blog or not because this post and the previous one are about my real feelings towards him. In another words, I feel a bit shy. Haha! But nevermind, after thinking about this, I've decided to make my blog public again because I think not many people or even no people will be visiting my blog. Haha!

To you, my beloved KP.

2009-01-15T11:17:00.004-06:00

I'm waiting for you and I will always wait for you. I will only let you see or hear the happiness in me. I will keep my sadness all to myself.
Because I love you, because I want you to be happy and have no worries. If both of us are going to suffer, I prefer taking all the suffering with me, leaving only happiness with you. I prefer to suffer it myself. I know you don't like the way I do things but I hope you will accept it.
Every time when I think of the past, I will be very happy and grateful. We were always together and met each other everyday. That time was the happiest time in my life. At least I could listen to your voice and saw your face everyday when we were in secondary school. In the past, I would only bring happiness to you but the Wan Yen now brings only sadness. I become your burden, not your happy angel anymore. I know I must be considerate and tolerant. I must learn to live my life without you now. Now, you are very busy and stressed. Moreover, you need to care about my feelings all the time, which makes you feel tire.
Today, you asked me to put myself in your shoes and try to understand you. From what you have told me, I know that I'm a heavy onus to you in your heart. You also asked me not to think so much and not to be sad. I know you love me very much. You want to please me and make me happy. So, every time when I'm sad, you will be sad too. If I cried, your heart would feel painful too. Because I love you, I need to lie to you. I've decided to be always happy even if I'm not because I don't want you to be sad or feel tire anymore. I'm sorry.
Every time when I look at the photos of us, my heart will ache. Maybe it's because I know that you are not by my side anymore. I miss you so much that almost every night I cry before I go to bed. Tears have accompanied me to sleep. I don't blame you. Even I cry, I still feel grateful because I have met you. The God has given me the best lover that I can never had, which is you.
I know what to do now. I can only wait for you everyday for your sms and hopefully, your phone call. Even if I missed you very much, I would still hold myself from smsing or calling you.
What I have now is only memory. Memory of the sweet time that we had together. The things that we had done together. I miss your hug. I didn't ask for others. I just hope that I can hug you and stay in your arms to cry when I'm sad. You don't have to say a word. I just like the feeling of you hugging me. I like your body warmth and your presence. Even though this is just a small request, but I know that it can't happen.
KP, I love you...

Fly For the First Time

2008-11-06T00:19:00.004-06:00

Yesterday was the first time I fly. I like this experience. When the plane was ready to take off, I could feel the momentum and the speed of the plane. It was so fast. I like that feeling. And slowly, I can feel the lifting of the plane. Since I was sitting near the wings of the plane, I could see the wing and its movement. When the plane started to fly up to the sky, I could feel the trembling. The scene from the window of the plane was fantasting! I nearly thought that I was in heaven. The beauty of the clouds accompanied me all the way from KL to Penang. I found out that the sky has many levels of cloud. The clouds looked soft and spongy. White in color, so pure... and looks tasty. I also noticed the shape that formed by cloud. There were dinosaurs fighting( which made me thought of someone, miss that person ), dogs chasing each other and other shapes.

以为

2008-11-05T23:41:00.004-06:00

以为。。。
其实，是我自己想太多了。以为这个以为那个。其实全都不纯在。
婉艳，成熟一点吧。别那么单纯。
酱快相信人是错的。容易投入感情，是更错的。
要学会玩得起，以前你都能，你最能玩得起的，怎么现在变成了懦夫？
以前潇洒的你呢？不受约束的你呢？不为任何事而烦恼的你呢？
会受伤的人就是那些投入感情的人。你。。。不可以再这样了。
远离一切，忘了一切，抛弃一切，独立一些，勇敢一些，坚强。。。
这样，就不再会受伤害了。我真的应该要学会保护自己。
而我的保护方式 = 逃避！
常常逃避问题，希望上天来保护我，希望时间帮我解决。
这就是我。逃避是我的首要方法。

First Time Driving At INTI

2008-10-31T13:20:00.002-05:00

After eating with sj, he allowed me to drive his car. I didn't drive car for a long time. I didn't even know which one is break or pedal. Luckily his car is auto. I drove one round in INTI, telling him about the Jalan Pulau Penang and how to drive to my block because he said always get lost in INTI. We talked a lot tonight. We ate burger, beef burger and hotdog burger because the fish burger special that he wanted to try is out of stock.

The night after socio trial.

2008-10-17T11:32:00.010-05:00

After having our dinner at 10 something, we went back to hostel and this is what we did.

This one is not taken after the trial. It is the picture of Betty (left) and June Job (right), which is taken during the mass suicide trial's break.

Joanne took this picture when I was sitting at this position. She asked me to turn my face to the side.

The security guard (left), Betty hiao po (middle) and June Job (right) are acting cool.

They will be the best friends ever!

hahaha!!!

Joanne tried to pose like she is my girlfriend. haiz...

Joanne tried to be cool but she turns out to be not cool at all. haha!

Photo is taken outside yoke ching's room after we came back from the socio trial.

I'm acting cool, Joanne is being sweet. Such contrasting!
haha!!!

In this photo, the kiss that Joanne gave me makes me look like a small kid who is kissed by a pretty Jie Jie.
So sad... but maybe many guys hope that this will happen to them because Joanne is really pretty.

Luck can change everything.

2008-10-17T09:55:00.004-05:00

Have you ever thought or imagined about the life you are in now?
In the past, I thought my life will be just as normal as my sister or others. After SPM, apply to only matriculation and JPA. Usually the only path for me is form 6, just like my sister used to be because I know I will never get JPA or matriculation.

I never knew that my life when I am 18 will be what it's like right now. I also don't know that SPM has the power to change a person life so much.

Can you believe that a person who is always the bottom 6 in the class can have such luck to get what others thought he can't get? He himself also can't believe it.

Because of the good luck he has in SPM, his life changed totally from what he had expected. He also have a hard time in his studies because he is not as smart as others. He has not been so hardworking before in his life. In secondary school, he just fool around all the time. He is the naughty one and the joker. He didn't do his homework all the time and always copy others. He only studies the day before the test.

Everyday he didn't eat breakfast to school. Now, he eats breakfast almost everyday. He even cleans his own room which he won't do it in the past.

Because of this luck, he met the best lecturer ever. He learnt about many things. He realized how big the world is and how tiny he is. He learnt to be humble and tolerant.

Because of this luck, he had changed a lot. This luck opens a whole new world to him and put him in the reality world. In the past, he just lived in a fairy tale. Live happily without worry. Now, everyday he is worrying and feeling stress.

Busy October

2008-10-15T13:15:00.005-05:00

After raya holiday, the life of hell has come. Damn busy!
2 CSC assignments, each contains 10 marks.
Sociology trial, 30 marks.
CSC test, 10 marks.
Sociology test, 5 marks.

At last, the socio trial has finished. Even though I lost the case, I didn't feel very sad. I just accept it.
I've done 1 of the CSC assignments too. Now only left the Front Page!
I suppose to have the tests this week and I didn't even start studying for them. But luckily both the tests are postponed to next week tuesday and wednesday. Still, there are not enough time to really study for them because I need time to complete my CSC assignment which is needed to pass up next tuesday. Hope that i manage to finish the front page assignment tomorrow.

Wah, so tired today. So late already. Can't stand any longer. Go to brush my teeth and sleep now.

My Socio Trial Outfit, the night before the trial.

2008-10-15T11:27:00.013-05:00

Since I'm a lesbian in the socio trial civil case, I need to have a tom boy looks. So, I borrowed Marvin's black color shirt, Ying Ting's brown color pants, Emily's shoes and Yong Bin's white nike cap.

This were taken last night after I tried Marvin's clothes.

Ying Ting hiao po wanted to take picture with me.
I was trying to be cool and you see her. She was pretending to be my girl...eww! I prefer to have Sally Sax to be my girl since she is my lesbian partner in the trial.

Do I look cool in this picture?

Here she is again.

Hiao po Betty! ( Betty is her name in the trial)

The hiao po Ying Ting was wearing Sin Yi's cap.

Unfortunately, I didn't take any photo with Yong Bin's cap on.

Hiao Po Ah Ting and I were trying to be coool.

Haha!

Hence, we were doing this pose.

Acting cool again~

A serious tom boy face

This is what I look like when I'm wearing cap.

Cool, right?

Yeng leh?

Do I look handsome with the cap on?

I was trying to take nice and handsome picture.

See that sha po Ying Ting? Becoming a ghost beside me. Ruined my nice picture...sigh~

Calculus Test, MMP and Raya Holiday.

2008-09-24T06:56:00.003-05:00

Wednesday...busiest day this week because I have 3 classes ( 6 hours ) . OMG, the raya holiday is just around the corner. I will be going back on the 26th Sep night. Actually, I don't feel like going back. Not because of not missing my family, it's just that after raya holiday, final will be just 20+ days away! On this friday, I'm going to have a calculus test which is 25 marks for my total calculus score. I've done badly in last time calculus test which makes me to be extremely hard to get A- in my calculus. Those silly mistakes in the first calculus test :-( ng ng ng!!!

Today, I went to sport hall to join MMP (mentor mentee program) with Ying Ting. Actually it's quite okay, not as boring as I thought but it's not so fun overall. Just that by joining it, I get to know a few people. The games are quite okay. The best part is the dinner part, haha! I had my dinner there. 3 fried nangka ( don't know what it's called in English ) are my dinner. It is so nice! I love it. This also means that later I'll have my supper, maybe I'll have it outside, depends on whether any friend is willing to go out with me and whether I have studied my calculus or not.

Hang Out with CCS Club's New Friends.

2008-09-19T13:23:00.003-05:00

After the lantern night, I didn't contact with them anymore. Today, Ah Heong suddenly asked me to join them for a gathering. So, i just went there on my own, alone, because Hae Ju, Emily, Jie Hui, Sin Yi are not around. After that, I went back to my room. At first I want to go to play badminton with them but since nobody accompanies me, so I decided not to go because I'm still not very close to them. Then, later Ah Heong called me, asking me to join them for basketball. So, I went. Quite okay la...Just a bit boring because I don't know how to play basketball. I hurt 2 guys because I forgot to cut my nails. So, I scratched them unintentionally. Feel sorry for them. Sorry guys.

My First Celebration of Mooncake Festival at INTI-UC

2008-09-14T21:48:00.003-05:00

Happy Mooncake Festival!
I can't believe that I really went out with Sin Yi to play lantern last night when my calculus assignment still had not finished. But luckily, I managed to finish it before I went to sleep.
Last night, Jie Hui, Sin Yi, Joanne and Tzin Yee went out with me to play lantern. Tzin Yee as a photographer as she doesn't want to play lantern. She said this is her principle. Joanne burnt 1 lantern and nearly burn another one. There are also Sin Yi's friends but I'm not very close with them. Lanterns are really pretty! And it looks very romantic.

Wei Siang's Friendster Blog

2008-09-14T00:50:00.002-05:00

~ True ~

你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。 .

也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。 .

不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。 .

他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。你宁愿这样关心他，总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？你心中的这个特别的朋友…? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . .

Play Badminton At INTI-UC Court (mph)

2008-09-13T04:50:00.003-05:00

Today is the first time I play badminton at mph ( multipurpose hall). Only Jie Hui, Rachel and I went there. I didn't play badminton for a long time. The feeling of playing badminton in a badminton court is really fun and relaxing because there are no air resistance or any disturbance. I just wish that I can go back to my hometown and play with my former classmates. I must train badminton more often so that I can keep on improve on my skills. I'm looking forward for the next badminton game. I also hope that next time the badminton court has a badminton net because just now my friends and I played badminton without the net because unlike my hometown, INTI-UC do not supply nets. We need to bring our own nets. But this doesn't spoil my good mood today. haha!

Second Trip To Giant Hypermarket!

2008-09-12T03:34:00.005-05:00

After today morning class - sociology, I went back to my room and watched movie. At 12pm, I went out with my friends ( Jie Hui, Tzin Yee, Joyce, Ying Ting, Emily and Hae Ju) to Giant! We bought our daily stuffs there and ate our lunch at KFC! What a nice meal! Especially the cheesy wedges! OMG! It's damn nice even though the meal cost me RM 8.60. I bought biscuits, milk... I also bought a new clothes, peach color. I can't believe I can find a clothes that is my size and it's the style I like. It just cost me RM 8, very cheap, right? I spent about RM 40 in this trip.

This is me, wearing the new peach clothes and holding the horse toy of Ying Ting.

In Ying Ting's room. Her laptop and bed. I'm in my new top and a pair of normal shorts.

How is My College Life?

2008-09-10T10:31:00.005-05:00

How do we live our college lives?
Most of friends said that as college students, we must enjoy life! Don't just study the whole day!
Ya, I also agree with them. For me, I think college students should enjoy life but it does not mean that we do not need to take care of our studies! All things must be balance. You can't be studying whole day! My teacher told me, we should study for 30 minutes, then we must take a 5 minutes break. Other than studies, we must also maintain the relationships with friends. To do so, we can't be in the room whole day, like a bear hibernates in a cave during winter. I recommend college students to have their own blogs. Blogging is not a waste of time. It's not only encouraging me to express myself, it's also acting as my public diary. I can refer back to all these posts after a few years, when all the things can be different then. I can recall all the golden memories that I have here. This is what we called "life experiences".
I think we should do all the crazy things when we have the chance to do so but DO NOT OVER THE BORDER. I've done some of the things that normal people won't practice. I slept with Ah Ching and Ah Ting on two combined beds. I created a game called "pok pok choi". We played water while we were bathing. We eat together, joke together, study together, play together... I just wish that time will stop here but it's impossible. What I can do now is cherish the time left for us to live together. :-(

My First Night! 'o' !!!

2008-09-10T10:11:00.003-05:00

I gave my first night to who? Ah Ching and Ah Ting. Actually nothing has happened. I just slept in their room last night. We combined the two beds and I slept at the middle. Ah Ching has invited me many times already. Since we were planning to study sociology together, so I decided to sleep in her room last night. That night wasn't a very good night because sleeping at the middle of two beds is not comfortable at all. Ah Ching's bed is newer than Ah Ting's bed, thus, one bed is higher than the other and I slept in the middle of both beds. Can you imagine it?
After I slept, Ah Ting opened the air-con which made the room became very cold. I was awaken by the coldness in the room. I was too lazy to move my body so I just ignored it. In the end, I am sick now-FLU. I didn't sleep well last night. Luckily, I still can remember a bit what I have studied last night. Ohya, today my stomach was very painful. I think it's caused by the "mua ji" that Ah Ting bought it from a club. Nevermind, since I'm feeling better now.
Okay, back to the first night. Even though I criticized on it, it will still be one of the memories I can't forget in my life. I won't forget the happy time that I had with Ah Ching and Ah Ting in 4th floor, Block S, INTI-UC. Oh, there's another add-on point. My butt has been molested by Ah Ting's leg 10 times. She used her leg to touch or push it when I was studying. Maybe she wanted to test the sponginess of it. Haha!!! Just kidding.

At Last! Socio Test is Over!

2008-09-10T09:51:00.004-05:00

After studying like hell for I don't know how many days, I took my sociology test. Out of thirty, I don't know how many marks I can get but I do hope the mark is high as I really study hard for this time. I don't know whether I do well in the test or not, but I do glad that it's over. This is the first time I really study hard. When I was in secondary school, I have never studied like this before, maybe only before important exam in the school, such as SPM and PMR. I can't imagine that I really do all the assignment that the teachers gave me, which is not my usual style. I was the bad, naughty and lazy student last time. I don't know when did I change. Maybe environment or the friends do have effect on me, making me change to a better student. I like this change. However, to maintain this change is not an easy task. I need to discipline myself, which is my weakest part. DISCIPLINE! If I could discipline myself, I wouldn't be playing games, watching movies, chatting...all the time without taking my studies seriously. I'm very impressed by people who can be consistent in his work and can achieve his dream no matter what happen, for instant, Dr. Lim Ho Peng. This is what I couldn't do it my whole life.

.Which One is More Important? Happiness? Or Achievement ( dreams)?

2008-09-04T11:03:00.005-05:00

I'm facing so many problems now. All these problems can only be solved by myself. When someone is having pressure, and I mean huge pressure, he won't be able to be happy or optimistic. He will lose his smile and cheerful face. He can't remember when is the last time he smiled. He certainly won't remember how his laugh was sounded. When everyone is improving but you are standing at the same place without even moving a step forward, what do you feel? Don't tell me you feel nothing. If you know the feeling, then you will know what I'm feeling right now.

Do you know that sometimes when a person is smiling, doesn't mean that he is happy? Even though you may think that the person is a very cheerful person and he smiles or laugh every single day, but is he really happy? I mean TRUE happiness. Someone told me a sentence before. He told me that "no matter you are sad or happy, you also have to live, then why don't you try to live your life happily?". I know the person is telling me the truth but, do you think that everyone is able to make himself happy everyday? I don't think so and it is true. However, we must also try our best to live happily, at least we try.

Most people think that we should pursue our own dreams and things that we want. If what we chase will only give us satisfaction but not happiness, then is it worth to be chased?

ENL Presentation Has Over! What Things Come After It?

2008-09-04T07:35:00.004-05:00

At last, my ENL presentation has over. I did not do well in this presentation. My english standard really have a huge gap between all my classmates. After this presentation, in the future, there will always be another one. I can't be lucky everytime in a presentation or interview. How am I going to face it in the future?
Next, it is the time to face my sociology test. I thought I can study tonight but I failed. I was watching movie the whole night while my roommate was studying. Really contrasting, right? Tomorrow is Friday! Is my friend, Ah Heong's birthday! Hope my friend, Ah Ching and I will have a "bear bear hong" night. Haha! I sure most people will not understand what is "bear bear hong". This is the secret between her and me. I don't know whether we can have a bear bear hong night because we need to study sociology. I think after socio, there will still be calculus. The second test for calculus. So depressed now but I still can't control myself not to play around but to concentrate on my studies. (sigh......)

Presentation and Sociology Test!!! :-(

2008-09-03T05:43:00.004-05:00

Oh no! After csc, there is stil socio test! I thought it'll be on next Friday but the lecturer set it to be on Wednesday! Only have 1 week to study all the four chapters! This time the test is 30 marks, not like last time, only 5 marks... :-(

Tomorrow is my presentation day for ENL. Tonight i need to settle all the presentation thing, especially the timing. I must make sure I don't talk more than 7 minutes and not less than 5. My presentation mark is about 20%. It's quite a lot. So I must do well in it and gain confident in speaking through this presentation. I'm so scared! I'm bad in speaking and I'm always nervous in speaking, especially in oral test, presentation and interview! Don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. =.=

CSC test has just over!

2008-09-02T21:17:00.003-05:00

At last, my csc test is over. Actually the test is not so hard but because i didn't study hard enough, i left 2 essay questions blank. Thus, i lost 6 marks already. After the csc test is TOEFL class but i didn't go. Tomorrow I have a presentation, ENL presentation. Speaking is the thing that i scare the most, including interview. So I don't know whether I can succeed in the presentation or not. I haven't finish compiling or rearranging my ENL file too, which is needed to submit to my lecturer tomorrow. After tomorrow, I think I have to start studying again. This time will be sociology. Sociology mid-term test is coming soon! This time is not just 5 marks, it is 30 marks. Last time i didn't do well but luckily it is only 5 marks but this time I really need to make sure I will answer the essay questions good enough to get me at least 25 over 30, which is a very tough task. No point complaining now, right? So, I'm going to prepare my presentation and arrange my ENL file now.

Poker, Friend's Visit, Class 5.0

2008-08-30T11:12:00.001-05:00

My CSC test is coming. It's on the 3rd of Sep. Do you know what I'm doing now? Playing online poker games and watching movie the whole day! I promise myself to work hard but I cant hold myself from playing games. How to concentrate?? My concentration is always the worst among all my siblings. Today is the first time a classmate of mine, Tun Jie visits me at INTI-UC. I took him to dining hall to have our lunch. After the lunch, I taught him how to play the online poker games. (How terrible I am to teach somebody to play games.) We stopped playing games after my laptop had run out of battery. Then we just sat down and talked for 1 hour until 5pm. It's nice to have a friend to visit me, meaning that I'm not forgotten by people. Haha! I really miss my form 5 classmates. They are very kind and funny. They will help me if they could, a group of unselfish friends and they can be trusted.
TO CLASS 5.0 (2007):
I MISS ALL OF YOU
HOPE TO GATHER WITH YOU SOON! THIS RAYA HOLIDAY!